My First Time

today was my really first time...
my very very first time...
till nw...i m 21year old d..
although it was tiring...
but it was fun and awesome..
i nvr been enjoying dat much in my life..
hehe...
wow..dats was whole day..
i jz wasted my whole day..
but it was worth it..
hehe..
i nvr thought goin to IKEA would be so fun..
hehe...
i tot it would end up suckiezzz and tiring..
but, i was wrong....
it was great and i can buy alotz of things from there...
but b4, went to IKEA...we lepak @ the curve 1st..
ehehe...so high class...
hehe..canot fight with any penang shopping complexes
erm..mayb gurney plaza still can fight..
hehe...
if i got money..i surely buy all the stuff from ikea...
hehe..
all the stuff was so so cheap and nice..
hehe..
da design is simple but looks nice..
i like it!!!
hehe...
nt dat we dun hav things to buy from there...
but jz sked tat we dun hav enuf money to buy only..
hehe...
i bought alotz of things oso..
hehe...
for the 1st time...
i shop for 4 hours inside ikea itself..
ahaha...
erm...besides shopping...
there is a food court on 1st floor
and there is another food stall @ ground floor which selling karripap..
wow...so nice...
hehe..
quiet cheap..
soft drinks + karripap = rm2.00
hehe..summore da softdrinks is free flow...
hehe..summore the karripap taste so nice...Ichiban...
ahaha...
erm..
besides that, i ate my lunch at SS15...where there is Pork Mee...
wow...damn nice..although the boss is abit arrogant...
but worth it..
hehe...so so nice..
da soup was like heaven...
muaks...Mama-miAaa...
so so nice...
hehe...but alotz of ppl
bcoz its was jz opposite Taylor College..
den after the pork mee...we go eat the mamak rojak and oso chendol..
ahaha...my stomach really wanan bust d...
ahaha...hav to carry my stomach go back...
hehe...
den jz nw, i ate my dinner @ SS2...
erm...they call it Wai Sek Kai...
hehe...da ikan panggang was awesome..hehe..
da price oso nt dat expensive..hehe...
hehe...today really ate alot..
erm...plan diet coming soon...
ahaha...

What a WeekEnd...

ahaha...
what a weekend...
as usual...didn't do much stuff...
nt even doin any revision...
all i did was...
eat>sleep>play>sleep>eat>watch drama..
hehe..
diz weekend itself...
i played more than 15 sets of PooL...
ahaha...
crazy rite?
i kinda addicted to pool nowadays..
all thanx to my friends...
for ajak-ing me to play pool..
ahaha..
pocket berlubang liao..
hav to prepare to eat Gardenia liao..
ahaha...
come to the worst..
drink water only..
ahaha...
erm...
my life nw seems like getting more and more interesting..
ahaha...
everything was equally balance..
interms of studies..eating..&entertainment..
hehe...
and...oh..crapzz...
my mouse rosak d...
haihz...
wat a day...
tengah blogging..
den suddenly rosak..
lol...hav to use keyboard only...
ahaha..
luckily my hsemate still havent sleep..
he pinjam me his spare mouse...
luckily...
haihz..
gonna buy new 1 soon..
either Logitech Mx-518 or Razer Kraits...
hehe...my target...
erm...
this week is d 4th week of the new semester..
quite fast actually..
and yes..3 more weeks to go..
den..midterm break..
yahooo........
erm..ntg much diz week...
and 1 more thing..
finally, i can solve my rubik's cube d...
ahaha..after so many years of trying..
actually got all its formulass...so called Algorithm...
ahaha...
interesting...
hehe..
i can teach u guyz if u guyz wanna learn..
hehe...

Do u Use The little "RUN" thinggie on ur PC ?

erm..i wonder..is there anyone of us even try to use the RUN menu thinggie...

and for some of them...they dun even noe wat it is..

i asked some of my friends...and some of them giv me a shocked look..

and some of them said,"huh? apa itu?"

ahaha...i lol-ed at them...

ahaha..

and i google-ed out something quite interesting...

there is more than 100 commands available..

if ur memory are good enough...try to memorize all those commands..

hehe..

here goes the list...

Accessibility Wizard 
accwiz 

Add Hardware Wizard
hdwwiz.cpl 

Add/Remove Programs 
appwiz.cpl 

Administrative Tools
control admintools 

Adobe Acrobat (if installed) 
acrobat 

Adobe Designer (if installed) 
acrodist 

Adobe Distiller (if installed) 
acrodist 

Adobe ImageReady (if installed) 
imageready 

Adobe Photoshop (if installed) 
photoshop 

Automatic Updates
wuaucpl.cpl

Bluetooth Transfer Wizard
fsquirt

Calculator
calc

Certificate Manager
certmgr.msc

Character Map
charmap

Check Disk Utility
chkdsk

Clipboard Viewer
clipbrd

Command Prompt
cmd

Component Services
dcomcnfg

Computer Management
compmgmt.msc

Control Panel 
control 

Date and Time Properties 
timedate.cpl 

DDE Shares
ddeshare

Device Manager
devmgmt.msc

Direct X Control Panel (If Installed)*
directx.cpl

Direct X Troubleshooter
dxdiag

Disk Cleanup Utility
cleanmgr

Disk Defragment
dfrg.msc

Disk Management
diskmgmt.msc

Disk Partition Manager
diskpart

Display Properties
control desktop 

Display Properties
desk.cpl

Display Properties (w/Appearance Tab Preselected)
control color 

Dr. Watson System Troubleshooting Utility
drwtsn32

Driver Verifier Utility
verifier

Event Viewer
eventvwr.msc

Files and Settings Transfer Tool 
migwiz 

File Signature Verification Tool
sigverif

Findfast
findfast.cpl

Firefox (if installed) 
firefox 

Folders Properties
control folders

Fonts
control fonts 

Fonts Folder
fonts

Free Cell Card Game
freecell

Game Controllers 
joy.cpl 

Group Policy Editor (XP Prof)
gpedit.msc

Hearts Card Game
mshearts

Help and Support 
helpctr 

HyperTerminal 
hypertrm 

Iexpress Wizard
iexpress

Indexing Service
ciadv.msc

Internet Connection Wizard 
icwconn1 

Internet Explorer 
iexplore 

Internet Properties 
inetcpl.cpl 

Internet Setup Wizard 
inetwiz 

IP Configuration (Display Connection Configuration) ipconfig /all 
IP Configuration (Display DNS Cache Contents) ipconfig /displaydns 
IP Configuration (Delete DNS Cache Contents) ipconfig /flushdns 
IP Configuration (Release All Connections) ipconfig /release 
IP Configuration (Renew All Connections) ipconfig /renew 
IP Configuration (Refreshes DHCP & Re-Registers DNS) ipconfig /registerdns 
IP Configuration (Display DHCP Class ID) ipconfig /showclassid 
IP Configuration (Modifies DHCP Class ID) ipconfig /setclassid 
Java Control Panel (If Installed)
jpicpl32.cpl

Java Control Panel (If Installed)
javaws

Keyboard Properties
control keyboard 

Local Security Settings
secpol.msc

Local Users and Groups
lusrmgr.msc

Logs You Out Of Windows
logoff

Malicious Software Removal Tool 
mrt 

Microsoft Access (if installed) 
access.cpl 

Microsoft Chat
winchat

Microsoft Excel (if installed) 
excel 

Microsoft Frontpage (if installed) 
frontpg 

Microsoft Movie Maker 
moviemk 

Microsoft Paint 
mspaint 

Microsoft Powerpoint (if installed) 
powerpnt 

Microsoft Word (if installed) 
winword 

Microsoft Syncronization Tool 
mobsync 

Minesweeper Game
winmine

Mouse Properties
control mouse 

Mouse Properties
main.cpl

Nero (if installed) 
nero 

Netmeeting 
conf 

Network Connections
control netconnections 

Network Connections
ncpa.cpl 

Network Setup Wizard
netsetup.cpl

Notepad notepad 
Nview Desktop Manager (If Installed)
nvtuicpl.cpl

Object Packager
packager

ODBC Data Source Administrator
odbccp32.cpl

On Screen Keyboard
osk

Opens AC3 Filter (If Installed)
ac3filter.cpl

Outlook Express 
msimn 

Paint 
pbrush 

Password Properties
password.cpl

Performance Monitor
perfmon.msc

Performance Monitor
perfmon

Phone and Modem Options 
telephon.cpl 

Phone Dialer 
dialer 

Pinball Game 
pinball 

Power Configuration 
powercfg.cpl 

Printers and Faxes
control printers 

Printers Folder
printers

Private Character Editor
eudcedit

Quicktime (If Installed)
QuickTime.cpl

Quicktime Player (if installed) 
quicktimeplayer 

Real Player (if installed) 
realplay 

Regional Settings 
intl.cpl 

Registry Editor
regedit

Registry Editor
regedit32

Remote Access Phonebook 
rasphone 

Remote Desktop 
mstsc 

Removable Storage
ntmsmgr.msc

Removable Storage Operator Requests
ntmsoprq.msc

Resultant Set of Policy (XP Prof)
rsop.msc

Scanners and Cameras
sticpl.cpl

Scheduled Tasks
control schedtasks 

Security Center
wscui.cpl

Services
services.msc

Shared Folders
fsmgmt.msc

Shuts Down Windows
shutdown

Sounds and Audio 
mmsys.cpl 

Spider Solitare Card Game
spider

SQL Client Configuration
cliconfg

System Configuration Editor
sysedit

System Configuration Utility
msconfig

System File Checker Utility (Scan Immediately) sfc /scannow 
System File Checker Utility (Scan Once At Next Boot) sfc /scanonce 
System File Checker Utility (Scan On Every Boot) sfc /scanboot 
System File Checker Utility (Return to Default Setting) sfc /revert 
System File Checker Utility (Purge File Cache)sfc /purgecache 
System File Checker Utility (Set Cache Size to size x)
sfc /cachesize=x

System Information 
msinfo32 

System Properties 
sysdm.cpl 

Task Manager
taskmgr

TCP Tester 
tcptest 

Telnet Client
telnet

Tweak UI (if installed) 
tweakui 

User Account Management
nusrmgr.cpl

Utility Manager
utilman

Windows Address Book 
wab 

Windows Address Book Import Utility 
wabmig 

Windows Backup Utility (if installed) 
ntbackup 

Windows Explorer 
explorer 

Windows Firewall
firewall.cpl

Windows Magnifier
magnify

Windows Management Infrastructure
wmimgmt.msc

Windows Media Player 
wmplayer 

Windows Messenger 
msmsgs 

Windows Picture Import Wizard (need camera connected) 
wiaacmgr 

Windows System Security Tool
syskey

Windows Update Launches
wupdmgr

Windows Version (to show which version of windows) 
winver 

Windows XP Tour Wizard
tourstart

Wordpad
write

ahaha...try ur self...hehe..interesting..its like magic...hehe..

New YEar...New SemeSter...

hey..

its hd been loOooooong time since my last post........

erm..shud be around 1 month...

coz quite busy wif CNY preparation and oso for new semester..

haihz..

its gonna be a long semester again...

torturing semester...

ahaha...

the subjects are getting tougher and tougher...

ahaha..

and getting boring and boring..

and everyday jz listen to my lecturer's lame jokes...

ahaha..

erm..nowadays...i've been addicted to play games..

pc games..

hehe...

Grand Thieft Auto: San Andreas

although is an old game..

but its was fun...

u try it and play it and u really really knw..

ahaha...

belum cuba belum tahu..sudah cuba, hari hari mahu..

ahaha..

erm..diz year i got another new electronics gadget..

i gt an ipod classic 30gb...

erm...its an older model...

but who cares..hehe..as long as the sound quality its good and can play music...

hehe...

and the looks oso very stylish...

ahaha...so so white...

ahaha..

den bought a Sennheiser Earphone CX-500 jz for rm75...

from gurney plaza...

its an in-ear earphone...

not bad...

can feel the bass...is kicking into my ear...

actually i saw it in lowyat selling from rm250-rm299...

but i dunno they selling it for rm75...but its an OEM version...

dont care..ahaha...

as long as got sound coming out from the earphone can d..

but planning to get Creative EP-630 earphone ler...

ahaha...

haihz...

erm...

tomolo is valentine's day...

ahaha..but i jz gonna sit at home..

no ppl to go out wif oso...

ahahaha...no date...

ahaha...

but i see most of my friends goin out for date and dinner...

ahaha...

haihz..another year had jz passed...

=)

1 dowN....1 more to g0ooo....

wo0ho0oo...

1 paper down...

and now..

1 more paper to go...

i can feel da drum beat now...

da holiday's feel is coming nearer and nearer...

ahaha...

from nw onwards..i gonna cut my post short and simple...

ahaha...

aiya..gonna sleep now..later wake up only do revision...

whole nite din sleep d...

ahaha..cant sleep..

too excited..

hehe...

btw, do anyone of u knw where to download english songs ?

coz streamyx blocked p2p program d...

ahaha...anyone knw ?

i kinda outdated from english songs d..

ahaha...

goin to sleep now...=)

PenanG...PenaNg

AHaha...finally...

i m goin back to penang...

on diz sunday afternoon...

tumpang-ing my friend's car..

ahaha...

i miss those penang food alotz....

ahaha...

long time din eat d...

hokkien mee, curry mee..chee cheong chok...

laksa...char koay teow...chendol...ais kacang...

and fried oyster....

ahaha...

damn nais....nais..

ahaha...

but b4 goin to penang...hav to sit for 2 papers...

haihz...sienz...

hehe...

ExaM WeeK...

Ohh...no...

havinNg finaL exAM diz week..

haihz...

but luckily i jz got 2 papers only...

hehe...

sienz...

New Year = X'maS

erM...i wonder...will my new year celebration will be like x'mas celebration..

erm...i wonder...

coz..my x'mas celebration was totally sux and dull...

hmm...

so, i wonder how will my new year celebration looks like...

perhaps jz spend da time sitting infront of my pc and chatting ?

or walking around cyberia ?

hahaha...

i really miss those time when i get to celebrate with my besties...

eeming,chawchern, lianghaw and chinloon...

erm..

ahaha...

but nw, wat i left is jz me, studies, and my friend...

ntg more than tat...

and jz nw...few hour ago..

i received phone call from my ex-classmate from disted...

he was telling me those news and stuff which i dun wish to knw...

and its annoyed me...

wtf...y muz he everytime keep telling me those news to me ?

u noe la..once i knw...i feel like so so weak...

i cant handle it...

even though already pass for such a long time...

i already told him many times d...ahaha...

but always oso like dat 1...

haihz...

i think he purposely 1...

ahaha...

Lonely X'maS...

AHaha...

although is x'mas..

but...

my place here...

like area 51..

i cant see even 1 ppl on the road oso...no car..no animal...

wtf...

ahaha...

really tak ada x'mas mood...

mayb everyone went back to hometown d..

even no ppl blast music...

normally, there is many ppl walking here and there and ppl blasting their music...

till like disco like dat...

but yesterday was like...so quiet..

no celebration at all in cyberjaya here...

haihz...

apa ni ?

i think diz is da worst x'mas celebration i ever had...

and da 1st time in cyberjaya..

at least last time back in melaka...still got da mood and the spirit of x'mas...

ahaha...

den today...diz morning..

me and a bunch of my hsemate...went to timesquare and lowyat plaza..

ahaha..watch "The Spirit"...nt bad...at IMAXX cinema...

damn big la dat cinema...

summore da seat so comfy...

ahaha..den jalan jalan till around 9pm den come back...

ahaha...

dats all for my x'mas celebration...

this year really is a lonely celebration...

ahaha...

diz year x'mas sux...

ahaha...

KL Here i Come....

AHaha..i will be goin to kl today...ahaha

but diz time nt from penang..but from cyberjaya..

ahaha..i nvr come out from cyberjaya since i start studying..

ahaha..den mayb later go pc fair...

ahaha..go survey survey...

ahaha...

Im back...Im Free...

AHaha...i m back..
wah...diz week was my bz-iest week ever...
everyday...
EverYday...mon-sun...
go library only...
haihz...
study for Digital Logic Design test...
although it was jz midterm..
but i dunno why i suddenly so so "pia" for it...
ahaha...
erm...as usual...my life...ntg new...
jz as boring as last time...
jz dat...i m nw free from everything...
freedom...
and now i nid nt nid to worry much about the stuff in Penang...
yes...kinda lost contact from those group d...
i had no idea oso..y it happen and how it happen...
i'll nvr know...
erm...i dunoo wat had actually happen back in disted...
no idea...really no idea...
suddenly kena avoid...dunno...
hehe...
for past few weeks...i was like so down...jz keep thinking about those stuff and sad only...
but nw...i dun really care much...
dun wan it happen but it oso happen liao..
cant do much...sad oso no use...
so, i guess..i jz hav to accept it..
be a man...
but i still wanna find out on what had actually happen which make me kena till so teruk..
haha...
but i stil hav some plan goin on...24th Dec 2008...
hehe..
i will NOT coming back to Penang diz X'mas..
coz..i gt tonnes of things to do here..
and oso gonna sit for final exam after x'mas...
nvm...gonna celebrate it @ cyber...alone...
ahaha...
i m nw jz realize dat my life in cyber is far better than in penang..
cz...
i m so happy-go-lucky...
no stress...even a single day...although everyday oso goto library...
i m nw free from any problem...
i can do wat i want...
i m nw back to who i m supposed to be...
da real DuriaN...
ahaha..
jz nw...yesterday...8pm..
i sat for my dld test...
for da 1st time..i was panic like hell..ahaha...sked and nervous...
i nvr encounter diz b4...
mayb study too much d...den sked later when go in...dunno how to do...
but...
when i see da question...
ahaha...its was like so easy...10x easier than the past year i did...
ahaha...
diz is da 1st time i encounter diz kind of feeling...
i can answer all without any problem..
ahaha...
last time back in penang...
i was like study a day b4 my test...
ahaha...and when i was inside da exam hall...
i was like..wth...y nvr see diz question b4? how to do ? wat to write ?
ahaha...dat was last time...
i was hoping for a change...since last time...
and now..i changed...
my bad attitude...
i dun wanna waste my parents money anymore...
although i lost something few weeks ago...which i dun wan to lost...
but i m nw jz looking forward into my studies...
nid to get good result...
i was so childish and distracted last time which affect my whole life..
hehe...
but nw...
no more distraction...
ahaha...
i love my new life...ahaha
Joie De Vivre...
hehe...

100th Post...

AHaha...wah...
so hard to reach 100th post le...
ahaha...diz is my 100th Post...
so happy...
after about 2 years ++
ahaha
erm...i gonna hav a loooo0000ng weekend...
since monday oso holiday...ahaha...
erm...
jz nw had my lunch @ Dengkil....small small town..nt big...
da Marmite Chicken Rice was awesome...
ahaha...u guyz shud try...
its RM6 but..its kinda big...
ahaha...
can skip dinner d later...
ahaha...
haihz...dunno wat to do diz weekends..
haihz..
ahaha...

1 dowN...& 1 more to go..

AHaha...i juz back from my test...
ahaha...
at last..1 down and 1 more to go..
ahaha...
da name Grand Hall...hear oso grand la...
but air-cond rosak...
haihz...
hot like ....
tengah tension..den tengah sweat...
ahaha...
sure fit 1...
summore using brain..den summore tengah sauna...
after doin dat test..my whole shirt wet..ahaha...
haiya..shud be mmu save money or cut cost...
tak ada aircond...
aahaha...
but da grandhall really looks grand...
da 1st time i did my exam there...
around 600++ ppl there..ahaha..banyak grand..
like goin for concert...nt test...ahaha..
hopefully all my final oso @ there...
ahaha...
i heard from my senior...da hall can taruh 900ppl da max...
ahaha..
ahaha..next wednesday gonna be another paper...
ahaha...
den next 3 weeks gonna be my final exam..ahaha..
syok nya...
but cant enjoy x'mas lo...
da week after x'mas is final liao..haihz...
my beloved timetable..which always block me from goin back to penang ..

1	EEN1036	EC101 (LEC)	MON	03:00-03:55 PM	XR1004
			TUE	02:00-02:55 PM	XR1004
			WED	09:00-09:55 AM	XR1004
			WED	10:00-10:55 AM	XR1004
			THU	06:00-06:55 PM	XR1004
			FRI	05:00-05:55 PM	XR1004
		ECA05 (TUT)	TUE	03:00-03:55 PM	CR1028
			THU	10:00-10:55 AM	BR1016
2	MPW2133	EC302 (LEC)	MON	05:00-05:55 PM	XR1004
			MON	06:00-06:55 PM	XR1004
			WED	11:00-11:55 AM	XR1004
			WED	12:00-12:55 PM	XR1004
			THU	01:00-01:55 PM	XR1003

Trimester 2
10 Nov - 16 Nov	Week 1
17 Nov - 23 Nov	Week 2
24 Nov – 30 Nov	Week 3
1 Dec - 7 Dec	Week 4
8 Dec - 14 Dec	Week 5
15 Dec - 21 Dec	Week 6
22 Dec - 28 Dec	Week 7
2009
29 Dec - 4 Jan	Week 8
5 Jan - 11 Jan	Examination Week (Week 1)
12 Jan - 18 Jan	Trimester Break (Week 1)
19 Jan - 25 Jan	Trimester Break (Week 2)
26 Jan - 1 Feb	Trimester Break (Week 3)

Am I too Emo ?

Haihz...
some of my good friends saying tat i m too emo and think too much..
all of them ask me to relax and calm down..
dont think too much and juz let it be..
ahaha...
i jz realize dat i bcome more emo since i start studying @ disted...
ahaha...
dunno oso...
b4 dat, i was so happy-go-lucky...
till last week..my family members keep asking on why i m always look sad...
and they said i m nt the usual DuriaN which i used to be...
ahaha...
dat last time durian always can laugh and joke alotz 1...
ahaha..nvr ever sad 1...
ahaha...
den...during the trip to cyberjaya...
on the way dat time..
i was thinking...
perhaps...i shud jz change back and bcome who i used to be...
da real DuriaN...
ahaha...
coz nw..i rarely can chit chat much...
erm...i always sad sad and sad only...
haihz...
actually i already did all my best and provide wateva i can to her..
haihz..but dunno...
i cant do anything now...
but one thing for sure..
i wanna know wat did i did wrong...
haihz...
mayb i shud change to da last time DuriaN...
ahaha...

X'mas 2008

AHaha...
still left 23 days only...ahaha..
christmas..christmas..chiristmas..
HoHoHo...
haihz...but diz time i m nt goin back...
coz da week after xmas is my final exam d...
ahaha...
stupid 1...ahaha...
ppl tengah enjoying while we hav to pia study...
ahaha...
haihz...
but diz year xmas there wont be anyone selling spray anymore..
ahaha...
erm..nt dat syok d lo...
ahaha...
erm...later, i wanna go do my smartcard d..
ahaha..banyak excited..
ahaha....dunno how will da smartcard look like..
ahaha...dunno still same wif my old one...
ahaha..

3rd Day in Penang...now in Cyber..

Erm...my 3rd day of holiday in penang kinda great...
ahaha...whole day juz go lepak wif friends and go cut hair...
ahaha...erm..went out with 3 different groups of friends...
ahaha...
8-11am...dim sum...
den 11am-2pm...cut hair
2-5pm...lunch wif another group of friends and jalan jalan..
ahaha..
at least i m abit happy d..
ahaha...
if i nvr think of it...den i m happy..
ahaha...
haiya..now hav to pia for my midterm test on diz wednesday le..
ahaha...
at least nw got abit of mood to study liao..
there is no point to be sad...
ahaha...
things come and go...
hehe...
at least i get to knw nw better than later..
ahaha...
erm...
okok..
i m in cyberjaya liao..
i took 7.30am bus diz morning...
ahaha..
but i reach at the sungai nibong bus station quite late..7.38am..
ahaha...but luckily..still gt other ppl come later than me..
ahaha..
den...around 11.45am..i reach pudu d..
ahaha...
den walk to plaza rakyat...
to take star lrt...
ahaha..waited for about 25 minutes...
ahaha...
den...around 12.40pm..i reach tasek selatan and nw hav to take klia transit pulak..
ahaha...
buthen diz time only hav to wait for 5 minutes only..
ahaha
luckily...
den around 12.56pm..reach putrajaya sentral..
ahaha..den take T429 bus to MMU...
ahaha...
buthen diz trip still ok..jz carry my woofer along only..
ahaha...
but for da last trip..i carry my lcd monitor..desktop and my luggage (full of food) along...
ahaha..imagine how heavy...
ahaha...
i sked d..
now jz take lil bit come can d..
ahaha...
very suffering le..
ahaha..
okla..wanna go take a nap 1st..
ahaha...

2nd Day in PeNang...

ERm...nt a good start for today...
erm..actually quite dissapointed..
i travel so far from cyber till here..
but dats wat i got...
haihz..
actually inside of me is crying...
but outside of me is jz happy...
acting like ntg happen...
haihz...
diz is da 1st time i feel like wana cry..
but i hav to tahan and cooldown..
wat if i cry ?
i think if i cry oso...
nobody will help oso...or "an wei" me oso...
haihz...so, its not worth crying infront of them..
haihz...
bt actually i cried few times today..but no one knws...
actually i already felt something is wrong on tuesday nite...
haihz...
den nvm, i try to come back penang...
den nw i can see everything clearly...
its da time for me to go away and juz forget everything which had happen..
forget the past and look forward..
all those sweet and great memories had jz fade away..
i dun wan such ending..
neither u all...
rite ?
i dunno wat had i done wrong ?
juz let me knw..and i willing to listen to it...
and i will accept it..
even u cant forgive me...
nvm..its ok..
haihz..
actually i was like so happy when i m on da way to penang...
haihz...
but...end up like diz...
diz is nt wat i had predicted...
and i dun wan diz to happen anyway..
haihz...see my face oso dun wan see..
talk oso dun wan talk...
haihz...its like i jz meet her for the 1st time...
and i m like a stranger there...
dat 1hour and 13minutes @ pizza hut...
i feel like being sit there for 1 year and 13 months...
i was like so so sad and looks like stranger...
haihz...
haihz...
haihz...
but wat oso..i oso hav to accept lo...
ntg much i can do...
da whole period...
i was like...
wanted to cry d...
so so xing ku...
my heart was like being stab by a knife and then being burn...
but how oso..i hav to act happy as if ntg happen...
haihz...
y lidat le ?
had i done anything wrong ?
plz tell me...
i m nw very suffering..
i m da 1 which dun like to show out my emotion or my feeling 1...
althou i m happy but actually inside of me is like...haihz..dunno wat suitable word can replace it...
haihz...
after dat lunch...
nw i dun dare to ask her out d...
coz i knw dat she is like trying to avoid me and as if i m invisible to her...
haihz..
summore i gonna sit for my midterm diz coming wednesday...
die lo...
nw damn tak ada mood to study oso...
y le...
i come back to penang jz wanted to be happy..
i jz wanna ask hergo out eat together...
eat tomyam...burger...and all penang food...
i tot...mayb thursday go eat tomyam..
den friday go for burger @ usm...
haihz...
takkan i cant bcome her friend...
haihz...
da purpose i come back is to eat those food...
haihz...
nw wat i oso dun wanna eat...
whenever i go those places...
i will think back all those old memories...
and sad sad sad..
haihz...
y le ?
i dunno y...
haihz..
after diz week...i m nt gonna come back to penang again..till
my trimester break...
coz..if like dat..no point for me come back to penang..
come back and jz to be sad...
she oso like dun wanna chai me d...
haihz...
den..nw i oso knw wat i nid to do d..
penang is nt my territory...
disted is nt my territory...
if i come back oso..mayb i shud jz diam diam and jz spend more time wif my family members...
since i gt nowhere to go besides go yamcha wif my old friends...
coz..last 2 weeks ago...
when i m in penang..
i din spend much time with my family..
i rarely stay at home..
coz..i most of the time oso go out wif her and yam cha wif friends...
haihz...
if she wanna avoid me..
den i shall dun wan to disturb her d...
the signal gv by her was so strong...
and i really knw wat to do...
really..today is da most sadest moment in my life...
i nvr had this feeling and situation b4...
its like a trauma to me...
haihz...
and nw i knw...why ppl do usually suicide...
i jz had diz feeling today...
as i was loafing at gurney plaza today..alone...
i was like...thinking of rather die than being alive..
and i totally lost focus...
i call the wrong person..
and i buy wrong stuff...
haihz...
ok..from nw on..i wont sms her or call her anymore unless she call me or sms me..or gt urgent issues..
coz i think she oso wont answer my call anyway and oso malas to reply my msg...
and she oso hope tat i wont sms or call her...or kacau her..
haihz...
wat i want is jz friendship..
ntg much...
or mayb u avoid me bcoz of my blog...
ok..i will appologize to u..
but liking or loving someone is nt wrong rite ?
those r the feelings i had in my heart...
but i din show it infront of anyone and tell anyone..
i juz secretly like/admire you...
haihz...
and oso...
and another reason i come back to penang diz week..
is bcoz i wanna giv her x'mas present..
coz i wont be coming back for x'mas...
i already brought everything...
its a watch...
but nw..mayb i shud jz keep it for myself...
since da situation is like..haihz...
dunno oso...haihz...
i din blame her..
i juz blame myself...
i m nw still thinking of wat i had done to her...
if diz is wat she decided to do..den i hav to jz accept it..
i cant do much...
no matter wat oso..i will still respect her decision...
i always respect her decision since da 1st day i met her..
dat was since 28th january 2008, Monday @ Disted...
wow..and today is 28th November 2008, Friday...
dat was exactly 10 months...
i m jz very sad lo..
haihz...
expect d unexpected...
for nw..i cant find anyone to voice out my problem...
my sadness..
so, i juz blog it here...at least i feeling better nw...i hav to accept the fate and truth...
haihz...
and again...b4 i gonna publish diz post...
i jz wanna say...
Sorry to her...
really sorry...
although i dunno wat i had done to her..
Sorry...Sorry..Sorry...i appreciate our friendship for the past 10 months...
haihz...
i dunno whether she knw my blog or nt..
but i hope diz post wont make the thing bcome lagi worst..
haihz...nw wat i m thinking in my mind is...
i jz wanna go back cyberjaya..
penang is nono to me...
haihz...
i dunno wat i can do rite nw...
juz wait and see..
haihz...sad sad..=(

Yam Cha

Ahaha..i jz came back from yamcha wif old friends..
all those friends which had been same class wif me since primary till secondary...
ahaha...
wif eeming,chawchern and chinloon...
3 of them oso from pykett and mbs..
ahaha...
at 1st, i go to e-gate to meet up wif eeming...
den afterward...
chin loon oso join in...
and afterward...
we plan to go to town to hav sum supper..
my favourite food...
ahaha...
NASI DALCA!!!!!!!!!
ahaha...damn nice woi...
ahaha...
den when on da way from e-gate to town..i hav to go to fetch chawchern...
opposite crc there..
da club hse..
ahaha...
den..later on...around 12 sumthing den we cabut d..
ahaha..den when on da way to eeming's hse...
he gv me alotz of advices...
ahaha...
not bad..cool...
nw i knw wat to do d..
ahaha..thanx ya..buddy..
ahaha..
hmm...i still cant sleep...
still active although i din sleep for the whole yesterday nite..
ahaha...keng ar ?
ahaha...erm..
tomolo yt another new day...
wat am i goin to do le ?
ahaha...
ohh..ya..
tomolo i hav to go disted for awhile to settle my withdrawal stuff..
damn mahuan...haihz...
wat to do le...
den hav to collect my result slip from cikgu...
if nt tak dapat buat credit transfer...
ahaha..den tak dapat baca for next sem...
ahaha...
wah..den on sunday morning, i hav to go back to cyberjaya again...
haihz..sien le...
lol..
haihz...
after diz, i m nt gonna come back again...
till after my final exam..
ahaha...
summore diz wednesday gonna sit for midterm summore..
ahaha..but i still havent touch anything...
die lo..
nvm, tomolo afternoon only start studying,.
ahaha..
still gt alot of time kua...
ahaha..wont die 1..i think..
ahaha...
hehe...diz sem hav to be extremly hardworking d...
cannot like last sem...
ahaha..can die le...
ahaha...
erm..okla..
hehe...wish i had a good day tomolo...
and hav a good start for tomolo morning..
ahaha...see ya..