Wonder Why...Wonder How..

Haihz...later gonna be my field theory paper..
but nw i already give up on dat paper..
cz i read till no where d..
lost d..
so so damn hard...
haihz..
couldnt understand da formula and theory..
haihz...
i wonder i m in correct course boh..
and i wonder y i choose diz course...
haihz..
nowadays..seems like i giv up easily..
i dont hav da patient anymore...
nt like last time..
now nobody support me and encourage me..
no motivation at all...
haihz...
today i purposely wake up at 3am to study...
buthen after 1 hour..i already tak ada semangat...
haihz...
since when i bcome like dat and since when i bcome so lazy..
and since when i bcome so useless..
and why ?
why is diz happening...
suppose nt to happen...
rite now...
diz is happens at wrong place and time..
haihz...
i dun wanna think too much d..
can siao...
haihz..
why ??
lost lost lost...
tak ada direction lagi..=(