Sunday, May 16, 2010

Past 'n' Now

Last time...not dat long ago...
holidays mean alots for me..
not dat the holidays now doesn't mean anything for me...
it oso means alot to me...but the "feel" is not there..
i dunno how to describe the "feel"..but i knw its nt there..
i doesn't hav da same "feel" as i felt back in secondary school and previous years...
izit becoz we grow older ? or what ?
i remember...
last time i used to enjoy my holidays...every single minutes..and seconds..
i nvr had a single rest during my holidays...
i nvr ever wasted any of the precious time by sleeping or doing ntg..
and i had a lot of fun..
izit becoz our friend's circle is getting smaller and smaller as they further their studies in other states ?
or izit we already bored ? or we had enuf of fun ?
the answer is NO...but mayb YES
for me is NO...NO..No..
i nid holiday...and holiday needs me...
without holiday...i can gone mad...with unstable emotion...
but Y ?
i dont hav the feel.........
its like so dull and lifeless...
and living a life with no direction..
its totally different from last time..
where every morning wake up with a smile and start up the day with a bigger smile and ended up the day with an even bigger smile on my face..
but now......as if ntg happen..
jz like those normal days..
dun hav the holiday feel..
the only things which are different is that...
i dun hav to wake up early in the morning and go for my classes..
and i m nw staying at my own home and being take care by parents..
other than that..everything is the same..
and one more thing..
last time..before i sleep...
i always thought of wat things may come on the following days..and i will get very excited till i will keep smiling when i was asleep..ahaha...
the "feel" is still unexplainable...
u wont enjoy the holiday if without the present of the "feel"..
wat to do ? what to do ?
i believe dat if i say dat holiday is not enjoying..
everyone are goin to throw stones at me..
ahaha..=)
Past 'n' Now is totally different
the way of spelling it oso is a big different..
nonid to say on how it feel..
i nid a holiday life

4 comments:

CWL said...

it's better to wake up feeling bored than to wake up having to think about assignments

3w3yaN said...

nono..during holiday mana ada assignment ? during holiday hav to wake up and think about sumthing happy..ahaha..too many "things" happen in this long sem..ahaha

CWL said...

yaya..holiday no assignments...thats y i say its better to wake up feeling bored during the holidays than to wake up having to think about assignments during normal days...

i rather hv holidays and be bored...

3w3yaN said...

ohh..ahaha..ya oso