Sunday, October 11, 2009

Ho-Li-Dayzzz

hmm..my 2 weeks of ho-li-daze had jz started...
i wonder wat m i gonna do..
i knw its gonna be a boring + dull holidayz..
everytime oso like dat 1...
but...but...
da 1st thing i would do is...
eat and eat and eat all those penang food...ahaha
hokkien mee, lor mee, char koay teow, and last but not least...LAKSA..
ahaha..dats y i'll never ever success in my diet's plan..ahaha..
bcoz i always hunt for food..ahaha..
anyway..yesterday..i already met her...
and wished her happy birthday..but did not manage to celebrate with her..
dun wanna to bring back all those bitter-sweet memories..
last year, we celebrated at Food Loft...den proceed for bowling @ Penang Bowl..
but diz year was different..totally no celebration..
erm..i dun dare to ask for her whether she wanna to had and celebration or not..
but, i think nvm, surely there is someone will celebrate with her..
hehe..last year, everything still goes fine..
but this year, so many things had changed..
i felt dat i m nt into her "frequency" anymore..
okay..i can felt it yesterday..now whenever i look at her..
i will nvr nervous or anything..
i felt ntg..jz normal..ntg special anymore..
dunno y..mayb we nvr contact for such a long time d..
but its good oso..
last time i was terribly hurt..
i was so sensitive...whenever she did sumthing..i felt the pain and almost wanna cry..
ahaha..but ofcoz cry in inside..nt at outside..
both of the girls had changed alotz..
they are so crazy and so so bising...nt like last time..
last time i remember, both of them cant talk to each other much..
but now..both of them can jokes and talk alotz...
da duration of 1 year had passed...
last time our group consisted of 4 pplz..but, now down to 3 pplz..including me..
sumtimes, i jz feel sad..but oso happy..
mayb there is some sweet-bitter memories..
sad cant be sad..happy cant be happy..
mayb i did a right decision..
this decision is the most important and the heaviest in my life ever..
which had changed my life and everything..
actually, the ending should not be like dat..there is another story behind this..
actually, i need nt to be in cyberjaya now...
actually, i need nt to be still in beta level nw..
actually, i need nt to be apart from her..
actually, i dont need to suffer all this while..
but..there is only "actually" la..in our life, the word "actually" doesn't exist..
what had been done is done..mana ada actually..
when u did something wrong, takkan u wanna tell ppl dat, "actually, i......."
i jz being told of who is the real-culprits behind all this things..
diz time, i m nt gonna do anything..
revenge is not my style..ntg i can do oso..
takkan if i succeed in my revenge..izzit the time will turn back to last year..
No WAY...
ahaha..i guess dats all for now..
gonna think of wat m i gonna eat later for breakfast..
ahaha..mayb Chee Cheong Chok..
ahaha..long time nvr eat d..
ahaha..


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