d’secret passage to heaven / hospital

 

This is how the little secret passage looks like..u’ll nvr knw..
it might guide u to somewhere else..(ofcoz free of charge & instant)

and its getting bigger and bigger..

and that is the current condition of my toilet..
its goin down anytime..and right nw, it was supported by the door..
if anyone of us accidentally touch or move the door..even by 1cm..or few inches…the next time u wake up is either lying on Hospital Serdang’s bed or never wake up at all..wood + electric shock is indeed a good combination..
so, whenever i doing my business,i will look up all the time..incase if there is any movement of the roof..i still can manage to flee from the toilet..and now..the best part is…….
The toilet door is 24/7 open..cant move at all
the toilet is un-useable..paralyzed..

”Nice to see..Nice to touch..
  Once it fall..Consider Jialat”

after waited for so long..finally..

my nuffnang account is going to reach rm100 mark soon..
woohoo…for others is like '’sap sap water’..but for me…
wah..its like so so hard…
i waited for nearly 2 years d…actually 3 years..ahaha..
when i was first introduced by my friend..
i see all the people around me seems like so easy to earn their advert. income..but for me..when i firstly registered..
i can hardly earn any single cent…
lol…for the first six months..i only manage to earn 12cents
ahaha..no kidding le..ahaha…wat can i buy with 12 cents ?
perhaps 2 biji of sweets and still got a change of 2cents
ahaha…but that was for the year 2007-2008..
but since i went back to Penang to pursue my studies..
i started to blog more…but when i m back in cyber..
i blog even more..but all of them are non-sense..ahaha
last time i hardly can get a visitor to visit my crappy blog..
when i firstly start blogging..i dun dare to blog much..
but soon, after being told by my friends that u can blog wateva things & crapz u want..den from there i only started to blog..
i feel dat by blogging, we can release our tensions..
we can express our feelings and anger instead of throwing tantrums at someone..
last time u wont get to see my blog updates so frequently..ahaha
mayb once a month or twice..or sometimes even worst..nothing..
but for now, blog is like so-called is a need for me..
i m so addicted to it..
but my blog is like so so dull…all full with words only..no picture..
is like somehow boring…very boring…nono..its super boring…
but after all, blogging is still fun…but reading other people’s blog is much more interesting…it has becoming my daily online activity..
when i got nothing much to do…and the best thing is when u read food blog..ahaha..sometimes..everytime oso make me hungry after finish reading it..lol..da foods was so tempting…ahaha…
a post a day..keeps the doctor away

Did i ?

Did i choose the correct path ?
Is Engineering really my choice ?
Will i be happy in the future ?
Can i really be a good engineer after i graduate ?
or did i just torturing my self to enrol into diz course?
First of all…
I’m good at nothing…
I dislike programming
Not that good in maths
Hate to write report
Very poor in memorizing formulas
Not hardworking
Too playful
LoL…this is wat i can think of..
As u can see, i didn’t fulfil the requirement..
ahaha…den y engineering ?
izit bcoz….
the title “engineer” sounds nice?
or..
just follow ppl’s footstep ?
or..
being forced to study ?
or…
………………………………
I still cant find the “why”….
not that i want to give up..
i just need to find my “why”..
there’s sure a purpose for doing something..
if without it..we r going nowhere…and lost…
as if we’re lost inside the jungle..
we have to find the direction in order to get out from the jungle..
the “why” is like the direction..compass…
how can a sailor or pilot travel without direction ?
they gonna lost and going to nowhere..
this same goes to me..
and i m still wondering…
maybe sooner or later..i will get the answer..

Stress test

lol….
gone thru diz test for the past few days..
wow..i jz realize dat i cant do anything right when i was under stress..
lol…keep doin mistake and can concentrate much..
after this few days of stress test..
i realize that, i tend to sleep more than normal days..
and ofcoz..i eat more too..
i get hungry easily…my mind is keep thinking of food..
food..fooood…foooooddd…
and oso..i will keep sweating during my sleep..
i dunno y…but i think it is bcoz my brain is still worried about other things when i was sleeping..
stress is my biggest enemy..
i dun like to talk much ,laugh, chatting , play or go out when i was under stress.. i jz dunno y..like not in the mood to do so..
no matter how funny is the topic or how interesting is the topic..
i will never ever join the conversation..
stress really not my friend…
for now, i jz nid to release my stress..
playing games ? watching drama ? talking ? chatting ? blogging ? listen to songs ?
last time i jz knw how to ask ppl not to stress..
but now, i m the one who is stress..
now, i only knw that we are not the one who control to either to stress or not..
there is still alot of things which i havent learn
its 6am now..and yet i still couldn’t close my eyes and sleep
just wish to have a better life other than keep study everyday
but i can’t ask for more
that’s it

My head is Pecah-inG

What is happening ?
What is happening ?
What is happening ?
What is happening ?
What is happening ?
What is happening ?
What is happening ?
What is happening ?
What is happening ?
What is happening ?
Assignments are good enough to turn me mad..but..
here comes another problem..
haihzzzzz..
what i can do now is sleep and worry less things
Feel like wanna bang my head into the wall
So many things happened at the same time
Just keep quiet and pretend as if it does not happen ?
or straight to the point ?
I really LOL-ed of what is happening to me..
Being accused of what i didn’t do..and i don’t know of what I being accused for..LOL
Why am I being so bad luck nowadays ?
phone rosak...being scold..being say..and now???..dunno wat to say…pek chek la…
what a wonderful semester…

Down..Down..Down…Down..Down..

My dream of getting new phone..a better one..was totally a DISASTER
Instead of getting to buy a new phone..i was scolded by my mum..
It totally ruin my day..my mood..and my life..
till I’m now not in the mood of getting a new phone d..
will be temporarily using my housemate’s phone
Izzit that hard to buy me a new phone ?
Not dat i change my phone frequently..and after all..i’ve been using those old and ‘not’ good looking-classic phone for more than 3 years
but anyway..i didn’t complaint much..
No matter wat oso..she is still my mum..
haihz..but diz really makes me down..
there is still tons of work waiting for me..
but really..really disappointed…
I’m so down + depressed + stress..
suddenly feel like dunno wat to do..
dont feel like wanna talk..online..chatting..laughing..smiling..
I just feel like wanna sleep..
Haaaiiihhhhhzzzzzz………
when i first take a glance at the phone..
i already fall in love with it..
but suddenly being REJECTED by mum..
it is as if u are getting married..but suddenly..the parents reject it..
Ahahaha...
my dream will never come true unless i buy it with my own money..
so..hav to start saving d..i know its too late for me start doing it..but at least there is still some hope..
The hope is there..now just depends on me..
No matter what, i will still go for it..
=) 

D’ end of my HandPhone Life

My 3 and half years hp is now Rest in Peace..
It had been providing a good service to me for the last 3 years..
I jz realize dat i can’t live without my handphone..
even few minutes or jz a moment…
Just now was on the way to campus..den..
suddenly i receive a sms..
den after typing the msg and wanan reply..
i tot my hp hang…da send button was unresponsive..
no matter how hard i press oso the same..
den..suddenly it switched off automatically..
LOL…
when i on it back…omg…
i nid to enter my PIN number…and press OK..
but…da problem is…
my OK button is not functioning..
ahahahahahaha….
thats the end of my HP…
R.I.P
as a student..without a HP is like without mouth and ears..
i cant even contact my friends..
and my friends cant even contact me..
there is a lost of communication medium..
wanna ask hsemates for lunch oso cant..
even with the existing of public phone oso seems useless for me..
coz…i can’t remember any of my hsemates number..ahahaha…
lol..its time for me to get a new and better phone..
there is pros and cons..

the pros : getting to change new phone, my dream of changing new phone comes true, i no longer need to use that old phone.

the cons : being scold by mum for spending money again to buy new phone, i lost my phone contacts, getting to change new phone..but mayb my mum will ask me to buy a cheap and not good looking phone..ahaha..(that’s the worst case)

So, i just hope for the best..ahaha…

finally..

i got the chance to cut my hair today..
so so so happy..=)
ahaha…waited for so long d..
tak ada kereta…and tak ada orang mahu pergi gunting rambut..
haihz..but after diz week..
again…hav to prepare for final d..
super sienz..

day ‘n’ nite

recently i felt dat my nite time has becoming my day time..
and where my day time had becoming my sleeping time..
i got more nite time than my day time..
whenever i wake up or started to do my things..da time oso around 12pm d..
at least 12pm…
i kinda didn’t get to enjoy my morning life..
i cant see da sun..
da sun is right above of me..
i only get to see sunset..
if i were living in Penang rite now..
i m 100% sure dat my mum is going to scold me and nag me..
lol..confirm one..wont run..

half-way thru..

its exactly 5.39am now..
and i m jz completed 50% of my assignment…
i’m out of ideas…eyes oso blur liao..
i wan to SLEEP..
haihz…
tomolo confirm cant make it to the morning class..
haihz…

How i wish…

that….
i can sleep for whole day..
sleep for how long i want..until i wan to wake up..
and how i wish dat i can sleep and sleep and sleep for few months..mayb few years..so dat i wouldn’t need to worry anything..
but..once i wake up..that is the moment when i started to think of assignments and studies..
da stress is slowly slowly come..
wave by wave..
need to worry diz and dat..
omg..and tonite..
i think i dunit to sleep d..
assignment is waiting for me…
woohoo…
so happening…
but da problem is…i only knw how to do part 2…
i really dun hav any idea on part 1..
coz its using Matlab…
gonna really make me mad..
tak penah sentuh..tak penah cuba..tak penah guna…
macam mana saya mahu guna itu punya program for my assignment..
i LOL-ed….
really really no idea at all..
ahaha..
nvm..never give up..
learning and trying is the only solution
ahaha..ok..i think its time for me to ‘pia’ my assignment..
if not..kenot complete by tomolo…den…
ended up kena cuci bersih bersih…
ahaha…woohoo...

what am i really doin ?

me myself oso not sure what i m doin rite now..
was lack of sleep and plus super duper busy..
very very blur for whole day
very sleepy but yet cannot sleep
and rite now..my house is so happening..
alots of ppls..ahaha..
so so meriah..ahaha..
but only happen once in a while..
one more month to go..
WooHooooo....
can't wait to go back PeNanG..
and enjoy my eat-sleep-eat-sleep schedule..
ahaha..
live like emperor..eat like emperor..
eat wat u want and eat whenever u want
wow..cant imagine that
enjoy..enjoy..enjoy..
nowadays alot of things had changed..
changed by itself..
till i oso haiiiiihhhhzzzz..
very blank...super blank...
i oso dunno wat to do and dunno wat to think..
there are too many parties out there
lol..

sleep-less nite again

i cant sleep again..
and its 4am now..
haihz..

A wonderful Day

today was a wonderful day..
i almost overslept for my morning class..
but still manage to attend the class..but 5-10minutes late..
still manageable..
as usual, i snooze my alarm clock..
i din even notice dat my alarm is ringing..
but my hand still capable of snoozing it..u see ?
how good is my hand..as if my hand already being programmed to do it so..
not jz today..but everyday..lol
so, alarm clock is consider useless for me..
mayb should buy a more advance alarm clock..
and ofcoz..dun hav "snooze" button..
if not, it will also end up the same thing..
ahaha..
ok..today i had very nice day..
i can smile and laugh..
i enjoy my day very much
hehehe..

~Joie De Vivre~

random..random..random..

today is such a tiring day for me..
not really get enough of sleep..
and some more diz afternoon went to Sunway Pyramid with my friends..
erm..since i had nothing to buy..so, it was quite boring for me..
dunno where to walk and wat to do..besides watching peoples playing ice-skating..
my whole weekend is like so boring and dead..
but luckily my friend borrowed me some tech-stuff to play with it..
if not, i gonna be bored to death..
haihz..sienz…

Things cannot be undone..

what done is done..and whateva happened in the past is history..
history can be either sweet or bitter..or it may be bittersweet..memory..
six months had passed so fast..wat i heard and see is totally different..
and what can be seen must not be seen..cannot be felt..
things might go the other way round…ops..not might..is had..
what i had expected has turn into tragedy..and
what i going to see in the near future is horrible
what i can see doesn’t mean u can see it too..and
what u can see doesn’t mean i can see it..

listen..listen and listen..
the noise is getting nearer and nearer..
i dunno what must i really do
jz close my eyes ? or jz cover my ears with my hands ?
but no matter how hard i cover it..the noise will still penetrate through my hands..
it is as power as an atomic bomb
its really heartbreaking whenever i hear the noise
can i really escape from this ?
its either face it or leave it..

its uncontrollable..and i can even feel the adrenaline running in my veins..
finding a person to talk with is indeed very hard
i dunno and i dunno and i dunno..and
i still can hear the clock is continue ticking…
tik..tok..tik..tok..tik..tok..tik..tok..tik..tok..

April fool...

was sleeping last nite..
until someone phone me..
that time was around 3.30am-3.40am..if not mistaken..
phone me jz to giv me an April Fool surprise..
ahaha..
dat time i was like still blur blur..
u knw la..sleep till so nice..den suddenly got 1 phone call come..
den, dat time ofcoz i didn't expect any surprise or think of April Fool..
coz my mind jz think of sleep..sleep..and sleep..
ahaha..somemore, bcoz of this surprise..
i kenot wake up for my morning class..
ahaha..ponteng all morning class..
but somehow..April fool end d..hav to wait till next year..
i might gonna use this same tactic to fool my friends on next coming year..
ahaha...but i think only some of them can take it while others might curse me "kaw kaw"..
ahaha..might as well hit me when i see them..ahaha..
besides April Fool..ntg much for today..
as usual, went for classes..eat..talk crap..and jalan jalan around campus + sit @ campus..
lol..diz was my very first time to lepak at campus and sit(on the chair) at the walk way there and talk crap..
it was actually very nice..the air is cooling and refreshing..plus the surrounding is like so relaxing..
but not really relaxing..got some noise pollution..thanx to those car's alarm + horn
if i can bring along my laptop + chinese tea there..that would be awesome..
imagine!!
enjoy the nite breeze and having a cup of hot chinese tea..wow..is like so relaxing..
ahaha..but ofcoz i wont..ppl will tot i study till gila d..
but anyway, loafing around the campus at nite is still the best way to get out urself from stress..
woohooo...

my favourite song.. 新不了情

Diz few days, i keep listening to diz song..
and i m now on da way learning to sing diz song..
ahaha..hopefully by diz holiday i can fully master diz song
i dunno y i like diz song..i cant think of any reason..
same goes to liking a person..there is no reason for liking a person..
u couldn't find a reason for liking a person..
like is like..dun like is dun like..
so, either like or dun like..
ahaha..lets cut the crap..
i found the pinyin for this lyrics..with english translation..
and oso the MV..u guys shud try listen to it..
somehow quite meaningful..



曹格 - 新不了情

心若倦了,
xin ruo juan le
If your heart is weary,
泪也乾了,
lei ye gan le
And your tears are all dried up.
这份心情,
zhe fen xin qing
This feeling,
难舍难了。
nan she nan liao
Is hard to relinquish or forget.

曾经拥有,
ceng jing yong you
I once used to have,
天荒地老,
tian huang di lao
All the time in the world.
已不见你,
yi bu jian ni
But I haven't seen you,
暮暮与朝朝。
mu mu yu chao chao
For many nights and many days.

这一份情,
zhe yi fen qing
This love,
永远难了
yong yuan nan liao
Is forever difficult to resolve.
愿来生还能,
yuan lai sheng hai neng
I hope in our afterlife,
再度拥抱。
zai du yong bao
We can embrace again.

爱一个人,
ai yi ge ren
Loving someone,
如何斯守到老,
ru he si shou dao lao
How do you remain faithful till you're old?
怎样面对一切,
zen yang mian dui yi qie
How do you face everything,
我不知道。
wo bu zhi dao
I do not know.

回忆过去,
hui yi guo qu
Reviewing the past,
痛苦的相思忘不了,
tong ku de si xiang wang bu liao
The painful memories are unforgettable.
为何你还来,
wei he ni hai lao
Why do you come then,
拨动我心跳。
bo dong wo xin tiao
To make my heart race.
爱你怎么能了,
ai ni zen me neng liao
How is it possible to stop loving you?
今夜的你应该明了,
jin ye de ni ying gai ming liao
Tonight, you should understand,
缘难了情难了。
yuan nan liao qing nan liao.
It is difficult to escape fate, just as it is difficult to dissolve love.

JJ's BirthdaY CelebratioN

Happy 22nd Birthday to JJ a.k.a Dai Wa Jing

ahaha..
this is a last minute plan..
although we not really have time plan it..but it still a successful one..
all thanx to my hsemates and friends
alots of photos taken during the party was like quite blur..
mayb due to the "excitation" of the camera man..
so, i decided to gather all the photos and make a collage..

21KM::Energizer Night Marathon 2010 : Mission Accomplished

but cant manage to finish it on time
it took me 4hours to finish the race
but at least i manage to run till the end
this is once in a life time experience
and now i m temporarily bcome OKU (orang kurang upaya) for few days..
ahaha...really is a once in a life time experience..
duduk pun tak betul..bangun pun susah..
macam kaki i sudah patah..ahaha
actually, during the run..
when i reach 12km point..there is a water station..
i was like so happy...
but..
when i reach there..omg..
i look anywhere for the water..but couldn't find any water..
and i heard someone saying,"Water is on the way..coming"
i was like..WHAT?
water station without water..
LOL
den, nvm, i decided to continue my journey..
at the 15km point..my upper left leg started to cramp..
ok..i decided to walk..
very very slow...
but the luck is not on my side..
when i reach 16km point..
both my legs..upper and lower..
CRAMP...
i was like OMG..
it happened at the wrong time and wrong place..
den, i slowly slowly walk towards the St. John station there..
dat time, i straight away sit on the road..
and let them heal me with ice..alots alots of ice
den, got 1 indian fella..
keep motivate me..
and also gv me 4 tablet of Salt..dunno da exactly name..
he said,"boy, u hav to believe me..ur legs cramp is bcoz of losing too much electrolite..u take diz 4 tablets and after dat i m sure dat u can continue ur run..even better..remember..meet u at the finish line later.."
and besides him, alots of pass-by runners keep giv me advise and motivation..
unlike those St. john fella..keep ask me to sit there and wait for the shuttle bus..
somemore said,"if u cannot run den dont follow ppl join 21km ma..u shud join 10km..i bet later wont be able to continue d.." to me..
wah..summore dat time i was suffering the most ever pain in my life..
feels like wanna cry..the pain is unbearable..
but after 30-45minutes, i stand up and slowly slowly walk..
dat time i was walking with my barefoot..
den after 10-20minutes of walking..den i wear back my shoe and start to job slowly..
coz, if by walking..there is still around 5km to go..there is no way for me to reach there by 1am or mayb 2am..
and the latest i hav to reach there is by 1am..
and oso..i keep telling myself dat no matter how..i hav to finish this 21km..
even though i m nt able to finish it within the time limit..
dat time, the whole journey to the finish line was so creepy..
no one is there and i m alone on that road..
and finally..i reach the finish line..clocked 3hour59minutes..and dunno how many seconds..
i m glad and happy enuf dat i've completed the run..
and encounter alots of experiences..
the feeling of pain..giving up and not giving up..
once i reach the finish line..i was like so happy..
and meet with my friends..

with Mr. Energizer

woohooo...
from left~jj's gf,jj,ah long,boon ching, my sis & meafter the race...

the Fanstastic Four..ahaha..8825..8826..8827..8828

Next challenge..either KL-Marathon or Penang Bridge Marathon..
ahaha..still considering..see if any of my friend is joining..
nw my leg still patah-ing..cant walk, sit, and stand properly..lol..

d’Day

In just few hours time, i gonna torture myself in an event which i haven’t take part before

It’s time to challenge myself. Outdo my self..
Let’s make it more interesting..if not, there is no objective for me to keep running and running..unless there is something to challenge myself..

Ok..lets make it like diz..
If i manage to complete it within the qualifying time (3 hours) , i will take up another challenge..which is Penang Bridge  International Marathon..but..but..but..
If let say i K.O during the run and cannot complete the run..oh well..
I will not join any Marathon Event again..nvr ever again
Unless got any special occasions..ahaha..

Erm..actually i plan to sleep early during this whole week..but, manatahu..kehidupan seorang student..mana boleh tidur awal..
already used to it to sleep late at nite and wake up late in the afternoon..lol..not morning..but afternoon..
”morning” seems like already extinct from my life since i enter Uni..
unless there is morning classes..waking up in the morning i really a big matter to me..

for diz sem alone, i think dunno how many times i had overslept..
its uncountable..ahaha..dats y i super duper hate to have a very very early classes..especially those 8am class..
even though i can wake up at 8am and manage to attend the class..
but instead of paying attention to the lecture, i m surely gonna “fishing” inside the class..
so, go = no go..no different..=.=..ahaha

so so sleepy and yet so boring here..but still stuck @ PJ
haihz…

 

1 more day to go

woohoo..1 more day to go
but no more training..
hav to let the muscle to rest
if not, later on the race day cramp pulak..
ahaha..jz collected my runing vest and my bib no. today
but kinda disappointed with the quality
and oso da size..
i took XXXL..buthen still quite tight for me..ahaha

today i laugh to much d..nw stomach pain pulak..lol
can say da most craziest day ever..laughing non-stop
but still..laughing is the best medicine
no matter u stress or wat..it will cure everything
today is the day dat i really really wish to hav on my daily life
coz i m free from stress-ness, and out from "some" world which i'm being stalked at and control-ed at..
dunno..but i jz knw dat i really enjoy the day today..
today i felt dat i m totally different since i started to laugh
i can feel the happiness , freedom and live the way i want to
b4 dat, i feel like myself being stucked inside a cage..
lifeless..

i dun nid anything fancy to brighten my life
and i dun like a complicated life..
jz a simple life will do..
like example..i like to travel around KL and explore new places wherever and whenever i want
bcoz..travel makes me happy..
and ofcoz finding nice food makes me happier..
food is like heaven for me
ahaha

random..

i jz found diz MV from some sites recently
mayb its abit outdated
but..actually not a bad song afterall
after listen n listen n listen for quite number of times
its kinda meaningful..

3 more days

so far so good..
i hope so..no physical damage and most important is..
no mental damage..
today indeed a good day for me
my roomate , my hsemate and me myself..
3 of us won some prizes for ourself
through the mini game on the marathon organizer facebook
but the prizes still remain unknown
it might be keychain torchlight, shaver or usb battery charger..
i was so shocked when i saw our name inside the facebook
we didnt expect to win anything from the game as we not really put our effort in
if 1 of us won, den it will be normal la..
but so coincident dat 3 of us won
expect the unexpected
okla..now at least got more spirit and motivation d
this few days train like mad
took the road not taken b4
jz run and run and run
without any 2nd thought..
but most importantly..my mp3 have to be alive
without music, my run goin to be a dull one
and boring..
at least the beat "thump..thump..thump.."
from the music can teman me for 3 hours
during dat time, i got no one to talk to..except my body and music
whenever my body ask me stop and walk..
i hav obey the instruction
but hope that it wont happen in a wrong place and wrong time
actually i m quite worry about the run
but no matter wat, i hav to face it
everything hav it first time
you'll never know
~Joie de Vivre~

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memorizing kills me

i jz wonder why some ppl can easily memorize the whole books/notes/etc..
but for me..even 1 piece of A4 size notes oso very hard..
i tend to be easily forget of wat i've memorized..
keep staring at the same paper over and over again for nearly 30 minutes now..
my brain still not functioning
shit..i cant memorize it..
good..very good..
tomolo dunno wat to write inside the lab

jobs done...

at last...i get to sleep now
but it is now 6.05 in the morning..lol..
still very energetic..
stupid yet lazy student like me deserved to burn midnite oil..
no choice..my brain's processor speed is low and hav to take a longer time to process it..
ahaha..how i wish i can become a-bit..jz abit clever..
but..it will nvr comes true for ppl like me..
i hv to stop dreaming liao..ahaha
by the way.......
one down..but one more task to do..
its "memorizing" task..
omg..i hate it very much whenever comes to memorizing something without really understanding it..
we tend to forgot everything we memorized whenever we got panic..
thats the main thing i worried for now..
what if i go inside and black out..
LOL
how m i goin to proceed ?
unless i will get a super-duper-genius-smart-clever partner...
ahaha..its all depends on luck lo..
ahaha..

18032010

its exactly 08days 20hours 50minutes 28seconds to go..
which mean i left just few more days for training
gotta be serious in training d..if not..
i will have to take either Taxi or Rapid KL back to my home
ahaha
and what if i forget to bring any money along ? ahaha
dat time..hav to jalan kaki back..
somemore dun hav handphone..
dat time i really gonna be the hot topic among my friends..ahaha
"kenot run somemore wan to run..padan muka"
ahaha
dat is if come to the worst..ahaha
jz hope dat i manage to finish it..
within the time limit or not is another problem..
dun care 1st..jz wan to complete the run..ahaha

sleep sleep sleep

last time i can hardly sleep at nite..but now...
damn..i've been sleeping alots recently
from 1 or 2am to 11am..den in afternoon 3 or4pm to 7pm..
an average of 14 hours of sleeping time
somemore feeling so so tired
dunno y..getting older ?
sometimes i will easily feel sleepy
erm..tons of workload is waiting for me..but sleeping is still my main priority
sleep sleep sleep

i smell something...

something which is not right..

from my eyes and from what i feel..

that sumthing is going to happen..

real soon..jz the matter of time..

and it is best for me to stay away from the field

i dun wan to be the one who step on the land mine and..

oso dun wan to be the one who trigger the bomb..

cold war is likely to be happened

as from what i experienced

diz time i will jz sit on the fence

as i couldn't help much and i don't want to make it worse

what i can do for them is jz hope that there is nothing going to happen as the time goes by..

i jz wan a peaceful environment..

i dun want to be like last time..

where every morning whenever i jz wake up from my bed..

i already started to worry on how m i goin to face my day later..

and i keep asking myself..how ? how ? how ?

and goin to college is like goin to a war field

my daily life is like jz waiting to be shoot-ed or stay calm and ignore the surrounding and pretend as if there is nothing happen

there is only 2 possibilites..

imagine that!! i have to adapt to the "environment" for nearly 14 weeks

i m phobia of my college...

during that moment, my life is really empty and jz feel like giving up on my studies..

which i did so..and it took me a period of time to recover..

so, i dun wish diz incident to repeat itself again..

sometimes, i feel dat it is best for us to voice up if there is any problem

in order to avoid any misunderstanding..rather than jz buried it inside our heart

after sometimes, it will eventually explode

and will lead to war..

it is better to solve it earlier than later

~Joie De Vivre~

stuck again..really stuck..

and diz time is on my studies..
so many things to do within diz week..
and wat worried me the most is my in-lab assignment
which is going to be held on next monday
buthen i still couldn't digest the notes given by the lecturers
coz i m nt a genius..i nid time..
and concentration..

why ? why ? why ?
why i always stuck at sumthing which i dun like ?
stuck here and there..

Sssstuck...

i hav to face 2 different world everyday
omg..i m stuck in the middle of this 2 worlds
not to say dat both world are bad..
this is nothing related with bad or good..
i m jz stuck in between..
sometimes i jz feel like wanna cry
bcoz i jz dunno wat to do
i always thought of how to treat both world equally
now it had become a burden to me
i m so stress inside out
i jz dont like the feelings of diz cannot do and that cannot do
is like being watched all the time
and i hv to be very careful on every step i take

i feel like being controlled by one of the world
i m so tired of this
i cant do wat i want
i jz cant live the life i wanted it to be
there's only one word to describe my daily life.."tired"
tired tired tired..
but i cant let go either one of the world..
hhhhhaaaaiiiiiihhhhhhhhzzzzzzz......

my life is meaningless if i still stuck in between
someone please help me
my life is like...
"nice to see, nice to hold
once broken, consider sold"
is like..once u fall..den be prepare to say bye bye
NO TURNING BACK

=(

Muthu..

i was online-ing jz nw..and surf around youtube..
suddenly thought of "Muthu"..ahaha..
his video and action is like a cure for ur boredom and stress-ness..
everytime i watch his video..
i sure laugh no matter how sad or how stress i m..
okla..here is some of the video which i curi from youtube
let the video do the job..

uno..dos..tres..quatro

25 Days left..
woohooo...its really fast..

i'm currently fall in love with this video and ofcoz the song oso..actually not now..long time ago..



erm..ntg much to update..dats all for today

I’m getting older and older

I think i might need an anti-ageing pill, so that my organs are not getting rusty.
I just feel like my body is not as healthy and energetic like last time.
I can feel the tiredness inside me everyday even though i just wake up not long ago.

That’s only one thing to describe it..
I’m getting older..
No longer young..not like last time when i can be active and energetic all day long where i went out from house at 8am and return home at 12pm without feeling any tiredness. Some more last time i used to be travelled by bus and walking and my whole day routine is filled with activities such as playing bowling, pool , goto cybercafe, arcade shop, and loafing, but i will nvr feel tired.

Last time i used to start my revision one or two days before the test or final exam during my primary & secondary school time but now, it was totally different. I’m nw wont be able to finish my revision on time if i start my revision one or two days before the test.

As we getting older, the life oso getting harder. Not as easy as ABC anymore. Haihz..how i wish i’m nw still in secondary school where everything is spoon feed and we need not to worry about every single things.

But ofcoz getting older got its own benefits. We are live to overcome every obstacles no matter how hard it is in our daily life. Without any of it, our life is meaningless and there is no aim in our life. And becoz of this, everyone has a different lifestyle. This makes our life meaningful and so so interesting.Woohoo..

Joie De Vivre

Laziness kini melanda Me

Laziness really kills me
i hav 2 midterm papers in a row on Monday and Tuesday
but..
yet i still enjoying my sweet time on watching drama , listening music and surfing forums
really not in the mood to start my revision

laziness + HOT weather = killing me
the weather is so unbearable, keep let me sweating
believe or not ? i m nw still sweating while writing this post
sweating is jz simply annoying
sleep oso cant, study oso cant
even now the toilet is cooler than my room
if can, i rather sleep inside the toilet but the problem is cannot
haihz

2012 is real..coming soon..
the end is near..
i nvr encounter such a terrible weather b4
HOT + wind-less
even though sometimes there is wind..but its a hot air..even worst..
but this is good news for ppls who wash their clothes frequently..
easier to dry their clothes

how i wish my place here is located @ Genting Higland
temp of below 20celsius
27hours left for me to do my revision
but not in the mood to do so
lazy lazy lazy

7:00:26:2:2010

Still..always the one who love you is the one who care about you all the time
and..the one who always love you will have to carry the burden of loving you
and still..there is alots of ppls don’t know how to appreciate it

there is an example..when a couple jz into a relationship, they tend to msg or call each other very frequently..lets say 10-20sms every one hour..or keep calling each other jz to say hi and get to know about the situation..but..but..mayb it will not last long..perhaps 2 months ? 3 months ? soon after some time, the guy will start to sending less and less sms to the girl and oso seldom call his girlfriend and by that time, only the girl who will start sending sms to the boy and sometimes, in return, the girl will eventually receive an kinda “rude-no manners-unresponsive” reply..and even sometimes, the guy will feel dat it is annoying and disturbing and eventually scold his girlfriend. this is wat i said earlier, some of them don’t know how to appreciate it even though there is ppl care about you. This situation NOT ONLY happened within boyfriend girlfriend, but oso within a boy with their parents or a girl with their parents.

Do they actually deserved to be treated like that ?
Do you think that they are too free and purposely come and disturb you ?
Do you think that they have too much free time to care about you ?

The answer is NO, and they care about you because they love you and the main reason they care about you is simply because you the most important person in their life. If not, they will not even bother to care about you and just let you be what you want to be.

All of us are human too. We are not robots or whatsoever you wanna call it. We do have feelings too.

There is a limit for everything. Once its over then its over. There is no such thing like “rewind” button in our life.

Remember..remember and remember..

When loving someone, never regret what you do, only regret what you don't do.

Energizer Night Marathon 2010

31 days to go..
for physically and mentally prepared..
anyone interested with this race ?
ahaha..as usual..the more the merrier
the registration is goin to close soon..
dunno how will it gonna be..
feel free to visit the website for more information
btw, i m nt earning any single cent for posting diz post..ahaha..
jz to share with u guyz..hehe..
sharing is caring..
i feel dat it is good if u guys can join this event as this goin to be a historical moment..
2nd ever night marathon held in Malaysia after the Putrajaya Night Marathon..
new environment..and ofcoz new feel..

Wooohoooo...Apa Khabar P e n a n G ?

after nearly one month of waiting...and
spending nearly whole day travelling in the bus..
i m nw finally can feel and smell the polluted yet nice PenanG air..
nt only smell and feel..but get to eat all those foods..
but...
i must not eat too much..
but..
when comes to food..i can hardly control my intake..
i eat wateva i see and i dun care wateva it is..
as long as it is delicious and can be consumed..
ahaha..

btw,Chinese New Year is jz around the corner..scarry
4 more days to go..

One More Week..and its CNY

i cant believe it..
jz 1 more week to go..
time really flies...
and oso..we r getting older..
and tomolo gonna be 4th week of my new sem..
dat's fast..
and i still dunno wat i m studying..
lol..
my daily routine is keep repeating it self everyday
wake up > class > lunch > class > play > drama > dinner > drama > sleep
lol..dat "revision" nvr appear inside my daily routine..
it have been replaced with watching drama..
ahaha..
drama is still always my 1st priority..
revision is always the last one..
ahaha

Sleep-less nite again..=)

omg..it strikes again..

but this time i cant sleep nt bcoz of something that bothering me..

but too happy..i m happy..but dunno y i m happy..

weird case..i keep smiling whenever i try to sleep..

or izit mayb bcoz i’m goin to malacca tomolo ?

but tomolo got ntg special..

dunno y..mayb sumthing great goin to happen tomolo ?

ahaha..you’ll nvr know..

i’ll try to sleep again..

nid to get some sleep…if nt tomolo gonna become zombie all day long..

ahaha =)

CNY mood activated

woohoo..
jz finished one of my test..
which is the one and only paper i have b4 CNY..
now..jz looking forward toward CNY only..
memang tak ada mood towards studies d..
lost focus on study for temporary..
erm..
thinking of eating nice nice Penang food..
and oso not forgetting..our all time favourite...ANG POW..
ANG POW = MONEY = CAN BUY STUFF
ahaha...
erm..9 more days to go...

Lost

i m lost..lost in nowhere..
there is a test on tomolo nite and yt i still knw ntg..

not to say i dunno anything..but jz feel tat the knowledge i acquired is nt enuf..and the main thing is......

i m lost again becoz i'm nt sure whether i've made a right move or not..
sometimes i did feel better..but after a moment..i think there is sumthing wrong..
we no longer hav the same frequency and therefore..it's like kinda awkward..
mayb diz goes the same for her oso..
i feel like as if there is barriers in between us..
i jz feel tat there is ntg much topic we can talk..
whenever i started a conversation..it is as if i m forced to find a topic to talk to..
i jz wonder why cant the topics jz storm in by it self..
why i need to force my self to find a topic..
and sumtimes, it is so obvious that the topic is like so meaning-less and lame..
and shows that i purposely find a topic although i dun hav any topic..
and this again placed me in a position of awkwardness...
i jz dun wan to spoil our friendship
ofcoz i m happy when i saw her..
but still, there is something not right..
this is wat i felt from my instinct..
but somehow, yt i dunno how to solve diz problem..
mayb i shud think less..and try not to bother about it..
but can i ?
been keep asking my self since last time till now..
how i wish i can..haihz..

Januari

January ends..here comes February..another 28 days to go till March..

Bye Bye January..Welcome February

I was on holiday during end of December till starting of January..
but guess wat ?
February is coming soon...
there is too many events in the month of February..
CNY...Valantine's Day..and oso not forgetting my midterm test..which i hate it so much..
suprisingly, both CNY and Valentine's day fall on the same day..
so, as for those who are married and currently not-available..
they gonna be super-duper busy on the day..ahaha..
morning & afternoon go collect ang pow den at night go candle light dinner..ahaha
but, as for me..i jz have to celebrate CNY only..ahaha..
save time + money + a good rest..
although last year i did celebrate it with all my male friends..
ahaha..can consider as single's celebration..
dats da only celebration for us who r still single..
we end up celebrate it at "The Waterlily" @ Bandar Puteri , Puchong..
not a bad meal after all..
but there is something very odd..
every table oso consisted of couples..but our table is full of guys..
ahaha..wat to do..
but this year..still dunno where to celebrate our so-called guy's-only party..
ahaha..mayb spending time on playing cards is the best..
i missed those "chor dai dee" very much..
long time didnt play..
especially playing non-stop from nite till morning and from morning till nite..
ahaha..

280108

2 years oredi...
when i first stepped into disted..
and my life started to change..
after all..it brings both good and bad memories
how i wish i could turn back the time..
and do wat i m supposed to do..

A "GOOD" start for year 2010 ?

good start ?? nah...
it rather a very bad year..
nt really a good start..
year 2009 is far better than 2010..
this week is jz my 2nd week in sai-ber..
but its full with dilemma...
so, its not a good start after all..
there is all kinds of obstacle i hav to face everyday..
its getting ugly and ugly...
life is much more better back in year 2009..
where i dunit to worry about any single things..
but now...whenever i wake up from my bed...
the WH- questions keep running through my mind..
m i goin to be haunted by my past..forever in my life ?
today is the worst day after all...
i really give up...
it is not dat as if i didnt put any efforts or courage...
but its really really getting out of my mind...
now i really believe that those advise i got from my friends back in Penang was indeed really true..
wat is urs..is urs..no matter how long or how far is it..
and wateva is nt meant for u...no matter how hard u tried...it oso wont appear to be urs..
wat may come after diz might be harmful...and more harmful..
as for now...today..25/1/2010...
i really giv up on it...100%....
it is really tiring for me to catch up...
there was up and down within diz 2 years..
and now...the most most important things that i've got throughoutthese years is...LESSONS...
Seeing is Believing...
its really true...
but after all..diz is jz part of our life..we still hav to continue with the remaining parts of our life...
new episodes of our life is goin to start soon...anytime and anywhere..
you'll never know!!

3 weeks + 1 day

time really flies..
luckily..still left approximately 22days for me to lose 10kgs..
hopefully i can make it..if cannot lose 10kgs oso nvm..
at least i will hav a healthy life..
i try my best to avoid any chicken or oily food in my daily meal..
and oso..try to avoid from taking rice for dinner..no more heavy dinner..jz a light dinner will do..
and last but not least...exercise!!
till nw i still dunno whether did i lose any weight or did i gain any weight..
ahaha..still unknown..
nvm, lets wait and see the result..

Horror-scope

before diz, i nt really bliv in horoscope..
but, after today, i started to bliv in horoscope..
all the horoscope readings for diz week was like so so true..
i couldnt believe of wat i read..


especially the "time" and the "mood"..
indeed i was moody throughout the whole day..
and oso not forgetting about the summary..
its was so so so true..u wont believe it..
diz whole week,i've been following closely to the horoscope..
supprisingly it was really true..
i jz sked that it might turn into horro-scope...
since starting of diz new sem, i was not really in the mood..
dunno y..
i got a mixed-feelings...
i keep telling myself to do the right thing..and not to step into that hole again..
but seems like, i didn't do the right thing..
things were fine till nw..jz dat the "feelings" is not right..
i already try my best..
but sometimes, i jz couldn't believe and take it of wat i see..
its really terrible...
although i manage to control myself from outside..
but..its really pain from the inside..
no one will understand the pain..
i jz want it to be the way it used to be..
the more i think of it..the more i suffer..
i think its jz a normal cycle of one life...

Today in Penang..Tomolo in Cyber

Time really flies…

fast and furious…

nw hav to wait 1 more month till the next holiday..CNY holiday

but 2 days only..haihz..

but i’m gonna ponteng class..ahaha..

once a year only le..i think most the students oso sure ponteng 1..

where got mood to go to class on 3rd day of CNY wor ?

sure ponteng la..but, i hope the lecturers dont sengaja hav a midterm test on that week..

i gonna kill u if u do so..

ahaha..hav to start pray from nw..

hopefully all the midterm is held b4 the CNY or far far away from CNY..

fuuuhhhh…goin back to my home “sweet” home soon..

money money money..

nowadays, wanna earn money oso hard..
susah cari makan...and now i've been challenged by my sis..
she said, if i manage to lost 10kgs in 1 month time..she will giv me rewards..
in term of cash..rm100 for every 1kg..(only applicable if i manage to shed away 10kgs..)!!!=.=
swt swt swt swt swt swt
lol..i dun think i can manage to accomplish diz mission..
coz..i eat wat i see..and i eat wateva is free..
and i dun giv any chance to those delicious food..
erm..but anyway..i gonna try my best..jz try my best..
erm..i keep gaining weight since i step into uni..
during foundation..i was around 70-72kgs..
but..upon completion of my foundation..my weight fly to 82-85kgs..
lol...man..10-13kgs......
and now, after 1 year of studies in cyber..i gain my weight again to 91kgs..
no one will believe me..lol
everyone is getting thiner and thiner..but, i m getting fatter and fatter...
ahaha...from wat i've heard..whenever ppl went to uni..sure lose weight...but me gaining weight ?
erm..how to lose weight wor ? stop eating mamak food ? no more supper ? no more goreng goreng ? no more tibbits ? eat oat ? drink water when hungry ? sleep when hungry ?
go jogging everyday ? swimming ?
lol...sakit kepala..
i will be very happy if i can manage to do it...but ofcoz nid to put alots of efforts in it..
mayb i shud start my "Ops Kurus" starting from Monday..
ahaha..to those in cyberjaya..feel free to ajak me go jogging...ahaha
mayb i gonna update it everyday..
hopefully can success...
go go go

Thr33 more days…

3 more days left…or equivalent to 72 hours..

and i m back to Sai-ber for new sem…

3 weeks of holiday so fast over..

diz year no more short sem…all oso 3 long semester..

all bcoz of the “genius” admin...swt swt..

haihz…

i had been moved to cyber for 3 semester d..

2 long sem and 1 short sem…or equivalent to 1 year..

so so fast..as if yesterday i jz finished my foundation course..

back to school soon…and back to land of mushroom soon…

where everyday oso eat nasi goreng kampung / kunyit / thai / ayam / daging…all types of nasi goreng…omg…

help-less

i m nt there when..

i cant do anything when…

i feel very useless when….

she nid any help…

guiltiness + sad = me

what shud i do ?

what i can do nw is jz giving advise and calm her down..

but i feel like it wont help much..haihz..