Da ~ DraGGarD ?

Da ~ DraGGarD ?

wanna knw the reason behind on why i named my blog of Da ~ DraGGarD ?

there is something behind the title..

Actually dat "Da" does not mean "The"

its actually related to my nick given by my friends during my secondary school..

long long time ago..even before the existence of Streamyx..

its around form 1 ~ 2..

"D" stands for DuriaN (i guess most of u knw)

"A" stands for AtoM (i think nt many of u knw about this..only a few numbers of my friends knw about it )

My friends started calling me DuriaN is nt bcoz of my hair looks like durian..

but mayb of my name..eweyan..durian..eweyan..durian..eweyan..durian..

in hokkien "liu lian"..

most of my relatives oso call me DuriaN..

and from there..i created a hotmail account with the combination of my name and durian..

ok..tats for DuriaN..

but how about AtoM ?

last time during my secondary school..around form 1 dat time..

my size was the biggest and fattest among all my friends..

which makes me look like Giant..

ahaha..and last time we used to play arm-wrestling inside the class..

and win most of the time..ahaha..not trying to action here ar...ahaha

and from there..i was given the nick of "AtoM"...

lol..AtoM sounds powerful..destructive..gigantic...

hahaha..till today..some of friends still calling me AtoM..

lol..those was sweet memories i had back in secondary school..

dats y i named my blog after my nick..

so..now u knw why Da ~ DraggarD...and not The ~ DraGGarD ?

ahaha...

btw, i jz put up my new banner..

didnt change for quite a long period d..

on the new banner..there is oso some reasons behind..for the spotlight shooting up and the wordings style which pointing upwards..

hoping for a new change..new beginning..and new life..

year 2008 nvr ever exist in my life..there is no 2008...

as for those of u who had followed my blog closely since last year..

my life in 2008 was awful and full with troubles..

troubles keep popping up in my life through out the whole year since I entered Disted...

i nearly blog it everyday as to point out my problems i m facing..

i knw sometimes i do regret for wat had i done...and happened to me..

everyone is given 2 types of road..

"the road not taken" and "normal road"

but unfortunately..i choose to take "the road not taken"...

which i suffered alotzzz..yt learnt many new things..

through out the whole year of 2008...

i nvr had a single day of happiness or perfect day..till i decided to move to Cyberland..

but i guess it was too late..

and after i moved to Cyberland..

there is something happened on the 3rd week..

which makes me so depress and decided to go back to Penang and seek for the truth..

there is too many culprits behind this..

till nw..when i mixed with my ex-collegemate..

i dunno whether shud i trust them or nt..

i m stuck in between..

i wont make it happen twice..

"once bitten..twice shy"

moving towards into 2009...

my life getting better and improved alotz if compared to 2008

but 2009 goint o end soon..and soon we will saying bye bye to 2009 and welcoming 2010..

wow..2010 looks nice..

ahaha...counting down to 2010..

28 more days..ahaha..

2nd Day in PeNang...

ERm...nt a good start for today...
erm..actually quite dissapointed..
i travel so far from cyber till here..
but dats wat i got...
haihz..
actually inside of me is crying...
but outside of me is jz happy...
acting like ntg happen...
haihz...
diz is da 1st time i feel like wana cry..
but i hav to tahan and cooldown..
wat if i cry ?
i think if i cry oso...
nobody will help oso...or "an wei" me oso...
haihz...so, its not worth crying infront of them..
haihz...
bt actually i cried few times today..but no one knws...
actually i already felt something is wrong on tuesday nite...
haihz...
den nvm, i try to come back penang...
den nw i can see everything clearly...
its da time for me to go away and juz forget everything which had happen..
forget the past and look forward..
all those sweet and great memories had jz fade away..
i dun wan such ending..
neither u all...
rite ?
i dunno wat had i done wrong ?
juz let me knw..and i willing to listen to it...
and i will accept it..
even u cant forgive me...
nvm..its ok..
haihz..
actually i was like so happy when i m on da way to penang...
haihz...
but...end up like diz...
diz is nt wat i had predicted...
and i dun wan diz to happen anyway..
haihz...see my face oso dun wan see..
talk oso dun wan talk...
haihz...its like i jz meet her for the 1st time...
and i m like a stranger there...
dat 1hour and 13minutes @ pizza hut...
i feel like being sit there for 1 year and 13 months...
i was like so so sad and looks like stranger...
haihz...
haihz...
haihz...
but wat oso..i oso hav to accept lo...
ntg much i can do...
da whole period...
i was like...
wanted to cry d...
so so xing ku...
my heart was like being stab by a knife and then being burn...
but how oso..i hav to act happy as if ntg happen...
haihz...
y lidat le ?
had i done anything wrong ?
plz tell me...
i m nw very suffering..
i m da 1 which dun like to show out my emotion or my feeling 1...
althou i m happy but actually inside of me is like...haihz..dunno wat suitable word can replace it...
haihz...
after dat lunch...
nw i dun dare to ask her out d...
coz i knw dat she is like trying to avoid me and as if i m invisible to her...
haihz..
summore i gonna sit for my midterm diz coming wednesday...
die lo...
nw damn tak ada mood to study oso...
y le...
i come back to penang jz wanted to be happy..
i jz wanna ask hergo out eat together...
eat tomyam...burger...and all penang food...
i tot...mayb thursday go eat tomyam..
den friday go for burger @ usm...
haihz...
takkan i cant bcome her friend...
haihz...
da purpose i come back is to eat those food...
haihz...
nw wat i oso dun wanna eat...
whenever i go those places...
i will think back all those old memories...
and sad sad sad..
haihz...
y le ?
i dunno y...
haihz..
after diz week...i m nt gonna come back to penang again..till
my trimester break...
coz..if like dat..no point for me come back to penang..
come back and jz to be sad...
she oso like dun wanna chai me d...
haihz...
den..nw i oso knw wat i nid to do d..
penang is nt my territory...
disted is nt my territory...
if i come back oso..mayb i shud jz diam diam and jz spend more time wif my family members...
since i gt nowhere to go besides go yamcha wif my old friends...
coz..last 2 weeks ago...
when i m in penang..
i din spend much time with my family..
i rarely stay at home..
coz..i most of the time oso go out wif her and yam cha wif friends...
haihz...
if she wanna avoid me..
den i shall dun wan to disturb her d...
the signal gv by her was so strong...
and i really knw wat to do...
really..today is da most sadest moment in my life...
i nvr had this feeling and situation b4...
its like a trauma to me...
haihz...
and nw i knw...why ppl do usually suicide...
i jz had diz feeling today...
as i was loafing at gurney plaza today..alone...
i was like...thinking of rather die than being alive..
and i totally lost focus...
i call the wrong person..
and i buy wrong stuff...
haihz...
ok..from nw on..i wont sms her or call her anymore unless she call me or sms me..or gt urgent issues..
coz i think she oso wont answer my call anyway and oso malas to reply my msg...
and she oso hope tat i wont sms or call her...or kacau her..
haihz...
wat i want is jz friendship..
ntg much...
or mayb u avoid me bcoz of my blog...
ok..i will appologize to u..
but liking or loving someone is nt wrong rite ?
those r the feelings i had in my heart...
but i din show it infront of anyone and tell anyone..
i juz secretly like/admire you...
haihz...
and oso...
and another reason i come back to penang diz week..
is bcoz i wanna giv her x'mas present..
coz i wont be coming back for x'mas...
i already brought everything...
its a watch...
but nw..mayb i shud jz keep it for myself...
since da situation is like..haihz...
dunno oso...haihz...
i din blame her..
i juz blame myself...
i m nw still thinking of wat i had done to her...
if diz is wat she decided to do..den i hav to jz accept it..
i cant do much...
no matter wat oso..i will still respect her decision...
i always respect her decision since da 1st day i met her..
dat was since 28th january 2008, Monday @ Disted...
wow..and today is 28th November 2008, Friday...
dat was exactly 10 months...
i m jz very sad lo..
haihz...
expect d unexpected...
for nw..i cant find anyone to voice out my problem...
my sadness..
so, i juz blog it here...at least i feeling better nw...i hav to accept the fate and truth...
haihz...
and again...b4 i gonna publish diz post...
i jz wanna say...
Sorry to her...
really sorry...
although i dunno wat i had done to her..
Sorry...Sorry..Sorry...i appreciate our friendship for the past 10 months...
haihz...
i dunno whether she knw my blog or nt..
but i hope diz post wont make the thing bcome lagi worst..
haihz...nw wat i m thinking in my mind is...
i jz wanna go back cyberjaya..
penang is nono to me...
haihz...
i dunno wat i can do rite nw...
juz wait and see..
haihz...sad sad..=(

7 more hour to go...

Erm..i m nt planning to sleep tonite..till dawn...
ahaha..coz i m goin back to penang liao...
ahaha...
but diz time shud be quite sad 1...
ahaha...
sumtimes..i jz think of letting go everything and jz start a new happy life..
haihz...
i jz wanted to go for yam cha nw and release all my sadness...
i nid someone to listen to my problems..
ahaha...
diz makes me cant sleep and my brain retarded..
lol..really 1...
like yesterday...i was doin the wrong things bcoz i see something which makes me totally lost...
LOST!!!!!!!
i was totally freak out...ahaha..
y le ?
y nt make me happy forever...
y god ?
apa macam ?
since i went to disted...
my life nvr been peaceful...
nt even 1 day...
besides college stuff..i gt many other stuff to worried about...
diz time of me goin back to penang..i wan to enjoy my life in penang happily...
damn..i m so depress nw...
erm..nw da problem is...
shud i tell all my ex-coursemate dat i m coming back to penang tomolo ?
but whenever i see them..i will like sad..
quite sad..haihz..
duno y...
da main reason i wanna go back to penang..bcoz i wanna settle my disted stuff...
and take some document along wif me..
and pass those x'mas present..
ahaha...
haihz...and nw is already 1.36am..and i still cant sleep...haihz...

Progress bt......?

erM..actually i m quite confuse lo..
during the 1st week when i come here..
she still gt msg me and ask me about my life here...
sumthing like take care bout me lo..
and summore can keep sms-ing...
and last week..we summore can masak bubur for quite long oso..
and last week i went back to penang...den..
i go find her lo..
and me and her chit chat under her hse there for about nearly 3 hours lo...
ahaha..talking crap and everything lo...
ahaha...den da next day..we went out and goto the so called new gurney drive..sumwhere at jelutong expressway there 1...
sit and chit chat at there for 1 hour like dat lo...
ahaha...summore da day b4 i wanna go back to cyber..
masak bubur for around 3 hours kua..
lol..
buthen when i back to cyber...
looks like we getting appart...
erm..looks like i getting less news from her d..
ahaha..i oso dunno y...
y le ?
i tot its a progress...bt...
quite dissapointed lo...
but on monday..i got phone her to talk abit abit lo...
den on wednesday..i sms her..buthen i can feel dat nw her msg like always wanna go to d end of the msg...
ahaha...erm..i oso dunno y..and wat shud i do...
shud i jz let her go and start a new life ?
i oso dunno...
da week b4 dat..we always got keep contacting each other...
till diz diz week and i can feel that there is boundary in between us...
ahaha...i oso dunno y...
wat did i do?
aaha...
and i was planning to go back next week...
but nw..i oso wanna think twice b4 goin back...
ahaha...
cz nw i oso can feel dat she like wanna avoid me..
erm..so, there is no point for me to go back lo...
better stay @ cyberjaya..
if i go back..surely sad case 1..
ahaha...
i dunno wat to do and dunno wat is happening..
got people backstab me @ DisTED ?
i'll nvr know...
coz u knw la...so many stuff can happen in Disted itself...
ahaha..i already kena and tengok many stuff...
so..its possible lo..
ahaha...
dunno lo..
diz week i juz feel very weird lo..
like being kena avoid only...
i dont wanna think much of it liao..
quite sad....
haihz...
perhaps i shud jz start a new life ?
coz its meaningless..if i keep goin like dat..
its like the farmer the one who always watering the plants..and the plants itself jz keep drink my water only..and i m the one who jaga and the plants itself jz stand there and waiting for the farmer to water the plant..erm..like no respond 1...
ahaha...tak tahu lo..susah ni...ahaha..

Finally....Cyberjaya...but...Haihz...

erM..i dunno whether shud i be happy 'o' sad oo...
haihz..i juz received a call from MMU and...
dey said dat my application is successful..
and yt..i do feel happy and sad..
mixed feeling..
i m happy bcoz i will no longer nid to see those 2 faces anymore..
both of them are so problematic...
haihz...cant bother them much...
they caused too many troubles d...
till now..i still nt yt let anyone knw except few of them..
which i m closed to..
haihz...
so so fast..
too rush d...
suddenly go there...
haihz..
actually...i m really sad la...
but dunno how le..
haihz..
i cant tell my parents dat i dun wan to go...
coz..MMU already approve d...
later i reject d..den later dey will nt entertain me d..
den haihz and haihz d...
haihz...
i already wasted half year goyang kakizz...last year...
and now..i dun wanna waste any more time..
ahaha...
time is precious to me..
haihz...
AND...i m SAD bcoz....
i hav to leave someone behind back in Penang...
haihz..
till now..i was quite close to her...
i really dun wan to let her go lo...
coz, during this holiday..
can say most of the day i went out with her..
haihz...
hiking...movie..shopping...eating...
haihz...but nw...haihz...
i knw she is sad...but haihz..
i m juz useless..i cant do anything lo..
mayb i will ask her out for a drink or dinner tomolo nite..
b4 i go to cyberjaya...
i dunno la..
but jz nw..i can feel dat she is so sad and sorrow...
she juz keep quiet all da way from bayan lepas till her house..
erm...i dun dare to interrupt her..
let her calm down and let her relax..
haihz...
den jz now..
i gav her 2 BIG APPLE donuts...
shud be ok kua...
ahaha...coz she looks so down and sad..
den i giv her..so mayb can make her happy abit..
i dunno whether wat am i doin is correct or nt..
haihz...
diz is da most sad cases for me...
so close yt so far...
but..during diz few weeks..
i really appreciate it..
i really love all da time being beside her...
dunno la..
i really take good care of her...
haihz...
i juz wish dat i can come back on every friday and ask her go for yam cha...
haihz..
i love her but yt dun dare to ask her sumthing sumthing..
ahem* u knw la*...ahaha...
haihz...
coz nowadays she seldom sms and answering call d..
ahaha...
and summore i dunno whether she will hate me boh...
coz i juz left her like dat..
haihz..
i feel so so sad la..
coz as u knw..
my class was seperated into 2 groups...
ahaha..
group A and B...
group A was a bigger group
and group B was a smaller group..minority...
den me and her is neutral..
in between Group A and B..
haihz...den i dunno wat will happen to her if i left penang...
she actually quite susah to adapt to those situation lo..
haihz...
coz juz nw..when i ask her...," do u think tat it is too rush for me to go back?"
den she said, "yalor..so rush..next sem only go back cannot meh.."
ahaha..shud be like dat..
ahaha...
i dunno wat will she think la...
but nw i really cant let go her...
mayb i shud come back on every friday...
ahaha...
and now...
my biggest problem is dat...
i dunno how to inform my classmates dat i m goin back to cyberjaya liao..
haihz...hard hard...
i dunno how to inform them...
haihz..
dunno how will they react upon i inform them..
ahaha...
shock ? angry ? laugh ?
ahaha...up to them lo...
ahaha..
i cant do anything...
ahaha...den..
if diz sunday i go there...
my friend will fetch me from pudu...
ahaha..so nice rite..
good to hav those good friends...
ahaha...
my ex-coursemate..
ahaha...
dats da my life in Disted..
good and bad memories..
ahaha...will blog more on next entry...
ahaha...i wanna sleep d...
ahaha...bye bye..
to be continue...

Stop & Stare...

I gotta stop wateva i m doin nw..
lol...den see how..
lol..haiya..
later summore got class...
extra class..
12-2pm..
haihz..cheh..tot dunit go d...
haihz..so lazy...
erm...btw, i feel dat she already gt bf d..
hehe...from wat i can see..
hehe..so for nw, i juz can stop and stare..
ahaha..
i m nw watak sampingan...
hehe...a.k.a. kelefeh...
why i m always out and lose 1...
ahaha..
d luck is nt on my side..
ahaha..
nvm, anyway..
i oso did ntg..
mayb being friend is better..
ahaha..
i nvr confess or propose..to her..
ahaha..i sked till gila..
ahaha..
nvm, at least nw i m getting closer to her..
but as friend kua..
hehe..dun wanna kacau her d..
since i think she already had 1 d..
ahaha..
i m jz a loser..
ahaha..
and yes...da day after tomolo..i m gonna enjoy my life d...
ahaha..tomolo is my last paper..
wah...so suffering le..
ahaha..
i gonna take this 3 weeks to resurface my self...
ahaha..
if nt, gonna berkulat...
i already plan everything for my holiday..
i)Goin to KL find EeMing and jalan jalan..stay at his appartment..mayb 2-3 days..den go makan and shopping..
ii)and mayb goin Langkawi wif my uncle..
hehe...
hav to do sumthing le..if nt really berkulat...
ahaha...
i nid to get a new life..new environment..
coz for da past 4 months..i've been suffering and facing many problems..
and diz make myself better..
i've learn alot and experiencing many things..
ahaha..mayb bcoming more mature ?
ahaha..dun laugh okk...
hehe..
once kena...forever in ur mind..
once bitten twice shy..
i m nw knw how was da feeling like when we r in dilemma...
hehe...
and oso..being avoided..
ahaha..even though all those kena temporaly only..
but da impact is very deep..
deep impact on me..
ahaha..
diz affected my life alot..
and nw i only realize tat love is blind and complicated..
no matter how hard we put our efforts in..
cannot is cannot..
cant be forced...
hehe..
but sumtimes when da oppotunity come..we nvr appreciate it and we lose..
lol..
last time i was play play and nt believe in love...
but nw..i greatly appreciate it..
ahaha...
i've learn my lesson..
ahaha..
never ever play with it..
hehe...
mayb coming back to penang for 2 semester is juz for me to learning all those stuff and adapt my self to a new environment..
ahaha..
hehe...i've gone though...
hehe..believe me..its horrible..
suffering..tortuting..hurting..
ahaha..but its actually a great experience...
hehe...=)
i m a man nw..
ahaha..

Its Started With...& Ended With...Chocolate..

LOL...
diz is juz like from drama...
its started with chocolate and ended with chocolate...
although i dun wan the ending to be like dat..
but i hav to..
no choice..
when everything seems to be ok..
but another problem arises..
haihz...
i wan to take action but i sked of losing friend..
so, let it be lo...i dun dare to take risk..
ahaha...
and anyway, i m goin back to cyber soon..
so, it might affect oso..
hehe..
when i 1st getting closer to her..i gave her chocolate oso..
ahaha..
den when i wanna go back cyber...
i oso gave her chocolate oso..
ahaha...
exactly same type of chocolate i gave her last time..
hope she get wats da isi-isi tersirat inside..
ahaha..
haihz..i m so so sad..
hav to leave penang..
i miss all those great time..
those was fun and enjoying..
haihz..
ahaha..
chocolate...

So close yt So far...

Haihz..it was so close yt so far..
and much more confusing..
izzit liking someone is so much suffering..
if like dat, i dun dare to try anymore..
all da efforts which i had put on so far..
its like disia-siakan sahaja..
no use...
its useless...
really useless...
ntg i can do..
and in return..
i juz hurt myself..
izzit worth it or ...?
i oso dunno..
damn...
L.O.V.E ?
how can i trust diz anymore..
last time i had already suffering from those trauma..
and now.......
yt another come again...
wow..
swt la..
i rather choose to be a single...
u noe la..
when there is no connection..
like wat we got in our circuit theory..
OPEN CIRCUIT...
means there is no current and voltage across the circuit..
so..
there is ntg i can do..
tepuk sebelah tangan takkan berbunyi...
i was like so so tired now..
chasing like for 8months now and still running..to chase..
but the result was nt awesome..
wat can i do now?
so far, for wat i had done..it doesnt show any result..
sumtimes da result is really bad..
and sumtimes its motivating..
ahaha...
i m tired..
if can..plz..
show me some signs of my efforts..
show me tat u take care about me oso..
and show me tat u accept me..
i dunno whether u r reading my blog or nt..
but i dun care...
i juz type wateva which i feel now..
i m so stress now..
writing in here will de-stress me..
its help alotz..
and if u r reading now..plz dont avoid or ignore me..
coz, wat i want is friendship...
i dun wan enermy..
watsoever happen oso..we will be friend forever..
i dunno y at 1st place i always protect u and take care about u...
wherever i go..i will oso think of u and buy stuff for u..
i dunno y..
everytime oso..i sked dat i will hurt u...
since da 1st time i saw u...
i already fall for u...
i dunno y..
i always ask for ur opinion...
haihz..
i nvr been like dat b4...
wat is happening..
buthen u nvr show me any sign and sometimes u juz ignore me..
haihz..
takkan u cant see wat i do for u so far..
haihz...nvm..i m ok wif it..
remember..friendship is da most important..
haihz..today i cant sleep again..
summore now is exam fever...
diz feeling was like lost for almost 2 months..
but now..its return again...
i dun like it...
it makes me stress and lost..
lost of direction..
dunno wat to do..
sit oso wrong..
stand oso wrong..
sleep oso wrong..
wat to do ?
u don even care..
u don even know me..
haihz..
normal..la..
watsoever oso..i still nid to move on with my life..
ahaha...for once..i was happy go lucky guy..
but after i bump into u..
i was like bcoming someone else..
more emo and sensitive..
every step or move u take..
i can feel it..
and its bring alotz of effects towards my life...
haihz..
y ? y? y?
haihz..
i dunno whether izit right or wrong liking u...
haihz..confused...
but i feel very happy when go out wif u..
u make my life more meaningful..
haihz...to be continue..=)

Izzit normal?

For a guy to be jealous...if
the girl they like mix wif other guy when we r nt around ?
the girl siao siao-ing with other guy when we r arond ?
the girl seems to be very happy wif other guy when we r around ?
we r nt around with the girl and let the girl wif other guy ?

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Ahaha..sometimes, makan cuka alot oso no good 1..
but the things is...
our brain who control us..we cant do anything..
sumtimes, when we dun wanna to hav to feeling...
or we dun feel like wanna makan cuka..
but...
our brain keep asking us to makan cuka..
what is happening??
i know when we makan cuka..diz means tat we really like a girl and really take care on dat girl..
and means dat we dun wan other guy to chase her away from us..
why muz we hav those feelings ??
why cant it be neutral ?
why cant we juz stop thinking and better study hard ?
but if we treat a girl nice...den watsoever oso the girl wont fall on other guy..
as long as she know how we treat her and da way we take care about her..
rite ?
so, juz let her mix wif other guy lo..
we oso got our life ma..we can mix wif other girls oso..
why nt her ? she oso got her ownlife..
takkan juz mix wif us...like dat die lo..
she oso nid friends and mix around..
cannot 24/7 mix wif us and talk wif us only..
after a long period oso boring liao..
ahaha..agree ?
now i hav to be more open minded...
i m thinking too much...
can sumbody plz advise me ?
ahaha..i really nid a counselling session..
ahaha..last time, i was like short circuit...
ahaha..but now after think and think again..den better d..
we got our life.she oso got her life..
so, we cant control much..
we actually dunit to worry dat much..
if she really love u..she will always by ur side and wont go away from u..
if la..she really dun like u..den u know lo..
izzit diz is a test ?
ahaha..if a thing is belong to u..its forever belong to u..
ahaha..correct me if i m wrong..
i m nw so confused...ahaha..=)

Life is So UNFAIR!!

So so unfair la..
very very unfair..
while they enjoy their life...
but..
why i hav to suffer here..
i m jz a guy who stuck in between the hole..
Why they always say diz and dat which make no sense at all..
while they are doin it..
why they can do while i cannot do??
why ? why ?
izzit being closed with summore means already "pak thor-ing" ?
wth..friend oso can close close ma..
doesnt mean hav to be bf/gf den only can close close..
some childish thinking will only say dat...
last time i was stupid and juz listen wat u had said..
but now..i m nt stupid anymore..
i noe wat am i doin rite now and i do wat is best for me..
i wont do stupid things..
wat u nid to do is juz mind ur own bf la..
u got ur life..and i got my own life too..
how my life would be is my problem la..
why shud u bother??
as wat ppl said out there..
dont judge a book by its cover..
at 1st..i tot is good..
buthen after mixing for some time..u noe la..
as wat ppl said in chinese ,"ren bu ke mao siang"
haihz..
u always said got movie movie to watch liao..den summore always said u bcome tiang only..
u noe when u say it out infront of me...
really make me dunno how to do..
i don feel anything wrong ar..

Test..Test..TEst &.....Test

haihz...i hate test and exam...
i hate i hate i hate...
coz...
need to study study study...
u know la...as u study...u nid to read alotz of books and notes
and do calculations...over and over again...
haihz...
i m last minute guy...so..everytime when test or exam coming..
i will burn midnight oil...
ahaha...
since standard 1 till now...i nvr prepare for test 1 week b4 test...ahaha...
everytime oso 1 day or 2 days b4...
ahaha...
except for SPM...coz its like a pasport to go in to any college or university...
and this will determine our future..
ahaha..
life is not easy as wat i expected...
things going up and down...
mayb today u r happy but tomolo u r sad..
as wat ppl always said...
not everyday is sunday...
ahaha..i agree...
so, plz don predict wat is gonna happen tomolo or future...
and don expect wat is goin to happen...
ahaha..coz, it will only hurt ur self...
ahaha..think wider and let it goes smoothly by itself...
life is like the water flowing in the river...
we can stop the water from flowing unless we got a big big water tank and suck
all da water to the extremly super duper big water tank...
ahaha..so, no matter wat happen oso..we cant stop it from happening...rite...
if fresh water flowing...we are happy...
if polluted water flowing inside the river..we gonna gone mad...
but either fresh or polluted water flowing...we oso cant stop..
so, wats gonna happen oso..we oso hav to just accept it..
ahaha..as wat we know...
life goes on...ahaha..there is still many fish out there..
so, we juz nid to be patient and wait for the good one pass by...
if we rush for it..its gonna turn worst and we nvr gonna had a happy ending...
ahaha...=)

What IF ?

da question what if...is very hard and complicated..
if we know what is goin to happen den, we wont ask this question d..
"WHAT IF?"
what if i take action b4 dat..and wat if i get along with her 1st...
wat if wat if wat if...
ahaha...
we'll nvr know...
wat if she take action first ?
wat if she dislike me ?
wat if she juz treat me as bff ?
wat if she avoid me ?
wat if she actually giv me hints ?
wat if she angry with me ?
WHAT IF ??
What if ?
ahaha...donno la...
i hate those thing happen..
why my life cant be that simple..
if it is easy goin and happy happy den good lo...
but its seem goin the other way round..
i oso confused...
i really want her but i dare not voice out..
i sked later she hates me..
so, its better to senyap senyap admire her..
hehe..
sounds like i very tak guna rite ?
if u guyz got any ideas den please teach me..i nid advise badly..
coz i dun hav much experience...
coz me always run away from problem 1..
so tak guna...
ahaha...anyway..my holiday juz left 6 hours only..
haihz...so fast..
and my 1st paper goin to in 2 days...
wow...haihz...
what if she like me but senyap senyap and act as if she ignore me ?
we'll juz wait and see..
ahaha...mayb juz let it grow naturally...
force force oso tak guna pun..hehe..
nvm, bcome friend 1st..
still alot of time..
after all there is nonit to rush..
hehe..=)

Un-sangkar-able Life

As what people always say...
we cant predict our life..
No matter how clever u r or how sensitive u r..
but we will oso nvr predict our life...
my life now is simply BORING..
haihz..everyday oso hav to study and study only..
now when i see books oso sked d..
ahaha..
btw, my holiday juz 1 day left..
ahaha...damn fast la...i nvr get to enjoy anything oso..
tak sempat do anything oso..
my life was like wave..up and down...
da graph was not so stable...
mayb i shud not involve in LOVE stuff yet..
coz sometimes its quite suffering...
things not goin smoothly as wat i had predicted..
always 1..i wonder why..
haihz..i dont understand why..
i think i shud not think about dat first..now focus on other things first..
ahaha..haihz...
sometimes, i think i m categorized under BFF and nt BF/GF...
so, tak ada chance lo...ahaha..
nvm, friend sometimes even better than being couple..
somemore i nt yt working..
ahaha..so , its better to become single..
ahaha..haihz..
today seems like got alotz of things need to be completed..
my assignment..
haihz..summore having test on tuesday..
chi cham ar..

18 signs of fallin in love

Actually those sign are quite true..ahaha..u will nvr know..

EIGHTEEN

you get so jealous when someone comment them saying they are cute

SEVENTEEN:

You look at their profile constantly

SIXTEEN:

When you're on the phone with them late at night and they hang up, you still miss them even when it was just two minutes ago

FIFTEEN:

You read their Texts and Ims Over and over again

FOURTEEN:

You walk really slow when you're with them

THIRTEEN:

You feel shy whenever they're around

ELEVEN:

When you think about them, your heart beats faster but slower at the same time

TEN:

You smile when you hear their voice

NINE:

When you look at them, you can't see the other people around you, you just see him/her

EIGHT:

You start listening to slow songs while thinking about them

SEVEN:

They're all you think about

SIX:

You get high just from their scent

FIVE:

You realize you're always smiling when you're looking at them

FOUR:

You would do anything for them!

THREE:

You blush when u hear their name

TWO:

You were so busy thinking about that person, you didnt notice number twelve was missing

ONE:

You just scrolled up to check & are now silently laughing at yourself

BFF & BF/GF

Erm...wats da different between (Best Friend Forever) BFF & BF/GF ??
erm...i m still wondering..
most of my friends said dat bff is one step above bf/gf...
meaning dat, they are too close to one another than instead of bcoming bf/gf..
they bcome bff...erm..is this really true ??
as a summary...too fren fren d..den bcome bff..
but then hor..if we nvr get close and fren fren with our fren den..where da friendship where
can berkembang and hubungan where can rapat..
erm..i wonder how and why..
sometimes, all this matters make us confused on where we are standing..
either bff or gf/bf...
sometimes da way they treat u like their bf/gf but actually they only treat u as their bff..
erm..so its quite complicated..
as i know, many of my friends already being traped inside this matter..
erm...wat actually bff can do and donts ?
and wat actually a normal friend or gf/bf can do and don't which bff can't do ??
wow..ahaha..aku pun tak tahu..
hard to differentiate...
if u are caught under the category of bff..will u proceed to bf/gf relationship ??
ahaha..this is a hard question rite..
ahaha..

Falling in Love

I think i 've been falling in love into someone..
which i cant mention who is she..
i juz think la...coz everytime i see or meet her oso..
my heart will "thumpa thump..thumpa thump"
wow..izzit diz is 1 of da sign of falling in love ?
i m nt sure..but let the time prove it..
ahaha..
i hate my weakness..bcoz 1 of my weakness is, i dun dare to take action 1st..
i always let the girls take action 1st...coz u know y..i sked later tak jadi den
later kawan pun tak ada..den chi cham lo..later suffer...
so, juz let it grow naturally...
ahaha..as i m not really good in pikat-ing girls and flirting with girls..so i nt dare to take action..
ahaha..sometimes, jadi kawan pun baik juga...
and sometimes, bcoming friends are better than couple..
but sometimes ar..we juz wan more than that..
we want to be couple..but dat dream juz cant really come true..
liking someone and being like by someone juz cant happen everyday..
its like one in a million..ahaha..
how can we happen to find to like a girl and da girl happen to like us too ???
cannot wat..its really really hard rite..
so, wateva things surrouding us..we hav to appreciate it and taka good care of it..
i nvr thought of it last time when i juz dont care and aprreciate it..
but now i m grow up and know wat is da best..
sometimes, i juz regret when thinking back about my past..but wateva over is over rite..
so, i juz hav to move along with my life..
sometimes, i juz can admire her and juz stay beside her..and curi curi take care about her..
i juz cant show my love and care to her...bcoz, if she knows it..she sure will avoid me
and i juz dont want to lost a friend..
so, for wat i can do now is juz curi curi..
ahaha..biasalah...its actually quite exciting lo..
i nvr had this feeling towards someone before and this is my first time..
ahaha..to be continue..