words…

some words might be sensitive
some words might not be as easy as wat u think
some words might hurt others
some words might cause chaos
some words might have another meaning in it
some words might be a secret
some words might be complicated
but still…words are words..some words need it privacy
but please use it wisely
things are not so simple as what u think
not everything can be solved in just a blink of eyes
ur words are not helping me..
it actually pulling me further deeper into the water
not every words are helpful
”less is better”
thank you for “helping” me

War Drums…4 more days

just 4 more days to go..
and I m heading for my most important war in my life..
at least for now..
I have to be hardworking and positive thinking thru the whole process..
and in 2 more weeks time..I can enjoy my holiday…….peacefully…
although I m not doing that well in one my subject…but still..
I have to think towards the positive way…
I cannot simply let my self down…
there is still plenty of hope…n…chance…
I will not be distracted by whateva stuff…again..



what I need is….
Study! Study! & Study!
but..is that possible ?
I really need some buff for this time final..
how I wish that I can multitasking….but..I cant…
this is proven during my assignment’s week…
put all my efforts in one of the assignment…
but I failed to complete another assignment
that was I regret-ed the most when I saw my marks few days ago..
but…there is nothing to regret d…as its already over…
actually, I was stunned when I saw the coursework marks…
just because of the assignment itself…my marks was being dragged from top to bottom…
why ? why ? why ?
at first, I jz had to work hard for the paper itself…
but now, I nid to work super super hard…harder..for that paper..
omg…haihz….super disappointed…
as usual…procrastinate kills me..
not once..but many many times…
again and again…
I’ll never change…forever and ever…
truth revealed..I’m nobody…but me…lazy me..

Things cannot be undone..

what done is done..and whateva happened in the past is history..
history can be either sweet or bitter..or it may be bittersweet..memory..
six months had passed so fast..wat i heard and see is totally different..
and what can be seen must not be seen..cannot be felt..
things might go the other way round…ops..not might..is had..
what i had expected has turn into tragedy..and
what i going to see in the near future is horrible
what i can see doesn’t mean u can see it too..and
what u can see doesn’t mean i can see it..

listen..listen and listen..
the noise is getting nearer and nearer..
i dunno what must i really do
jz close my eyes ? or jz cover my ears with my hands ?
but no matter how hard i cover it..the noise will still penetrate through my hands..
it is as power as an atomic bomb
its really heartbreaking whenever i hear the noise
can i really escape from this ?
its either face it or leave it..

its uncontrollable..and i can even feel the adrenaline running in my veins..
finding a person to talk with is indeed very hard
i dunno and i dunno and i dunno..and
i still can hear the clock is continue ticking…
tik..tok..tik..tok..tik..tok..tik..tok..tik..tok..

Horror-scope

before diz, i nt really bliv in horoscope..
but, after today, i started to bliv in horoscope..
all the horoscope readings for diz week was like so so true..
i couldnt believe of wat i read..


especially the "time" and the "mood"..
indeed i was moody throughout the whole day..
and oso not forgetting about the summary..
its was so so so true..u wont believe it..
diz whole week,i've been following closely to the horoscope..
supprisingly it was really true..
i jz sked that it might turn into horro-scope...
since starting of diz new sem, i was not really in the mood..
dunno y..
i got a mixed-feelings...
i keep telling myself to do the right thing..and not to step into that hole again..
but seems like, i didn't do the right thing..
things were fine till nw..jz dat the "feelings" is not right..
i already try my best..
but sometimes, i jz couldn't believe and take it of wat i see..
its really terrible...
although i manage to control myself from outside..
but..its really pain from the inside..
no one will understand the pain..
i jz want it to be the way it used to be..
the more i think of it..the more i suffer..
i think its jz a normal cycle of one life...

I m lost...with....

Damn..really lost and frustrated...
already google-ing since yesterday till now..
lol..i think i had seen / explore every single website which related to VHDL...
i'm nw can tell u wateva google hav and wateva website u want..
and oso wateva e-books u want..u say it and u got it..
damn bugger 1..lecturer oso nvr fully taught on how the coding works..
i mean those deep deep inside and complicated one...
yt hav to figure out and doin research by our own..lol..
damn bugger..summore nid to hand up the assignment next week..
which mean..few days left..
they really shud renamed it the other way...
sumthing like, "Very Harmful yet Disgusting Logics"
i m nw stuck in the middle..
lol..dunno wat to do..